children ran upstairs together, and Sophia paused a moment before following them up, to point out the package of books and to remind her husband that they owed Herman a dollar and a half.
âLetâs see if Duyckinck found all the books I wanted,â Hawthorne said with an easy smile.
Herman saw, in the older manâs angelic face and blithe manner, a battlefield where anguish had once contended with beauty andâneither proving victoriousâeach had lain down its arms and declared peace together. He felt Hawthorneâs hard-won serenity spreading into his own soul, and his abiding social discomfort evaporated like fog in the morning sun. For the first time in his life he felt perfectly at ease just standing and doing nothing; and he thought he could stay that way forever, as long as Hawthorne continued to smile at him.
Hawthorne took out a pocketknife. âAre the knots a joke on you or by you?â
âDuyckinck is the jester, in this case.â
He cut a perfectly constructed butterfly knot away from the rest of the twine and placed it behind his ear for a garland; then he ripped away a section of the wrapping paper and began withdrawing volumes from the packet one by one, handing them to Herman as he read the titles aloud. â
Mardi
, excellent.
Typee
.
Redburn
, yes.
Omoo
.
White-Jacket
, tremendous.â Herman found himself standing in the middle of Hawthorneâs parlor holding a copy of every book he had ever written. âAnd finally a copy of
Pendennis
. I hope you donât mind being lumped together with Thackeray.â
âYou ordered every one of my books!â
Hawthorne looked commandingly at him. âI had to know what it was all about,â he said.
âWhat
what
was all about?â
âThe picnic. What kind of person had such insight about me that he could make me feel known just by talking to me!â
âBut these books,â Herman said, despairing. âPlease do not judge me by them. They are not me. They were the best I could do at the time.â
âI have read
Typee
already, of course,â Hawthorne said, unconcerned. âI wrote a review of it, for the Salem
Advertiser
, when it first came out.â He put his hand on Hermanâs shoulder. âNo one knows the relative value of oneâs own previous work better than I do. I have not asked for these books in order to judge you by them, but in order to learn about you.â
Hermanâs mouth had gone completely dry. He tried to formulate a thought suitable to be spoken, but even had one occurred to him, he doubted whether his brain still had any control over his tongue. Unaâs and Julianâs light footsteps rat-a-tatted overhead, and Herman looked around, alarmed that Sophia might see them inclined toward one another so intimately.
âYou know, Herman, Iâm not convinced of this blackness ten times black that you see in me, that you talked about in your review. Thatâs how you put it, isnât it?â
âYes,â he said, feeling foolish now for every word he had written in
Literary World
âfor every word he had ever written. The easy philosophical banter that they had shared when theyâd first met seemed a childish memory; Hawthorne had reduced him to mere reverence. He cleared his throat. âPerhaps I should have said that, in your stories, blackness competes with blackness, which would have been a better way to put it.â He swallowed hard and willed his composure to come back. âBecause, in your stories, you seem to understand that true dramatic moments come not when a character must choose between right and wrong but when he must choose between two wrongs.â
Hawthorne looked quizzically at his younger companion and said, almost to himself, âTwo wrongs. Indeed.â He finally took his hand from Hermanâs shoulder as Sophiaâs footsteps pounded down the stairs. As she entered, Hawthorne asked, âWhat was