the vision that came to mind with those words. He couldnât see Mark, but his voice carried. Ash could just imagine what was happening at that moment.
âLike this?â Miss Lowellâs response.
âYes, better. Now bring it up. Quickly, now.â
Ash envisioned his brother standing in the parlor.He could stand behind Miss Lowell, his fingers wrapping about her hand. Sometimes, he thought that Miss Lowell had accepted Markâs offer to teach her to defend against a man just to drive Ash mad. He was certain Mark had offered with that exact end in mind.
Brothers. Ash shook his head.
Ash wished heâd had the bright idea to teach Miss Lowell how to hit a man. There were so many opportunities for touching. But then, that was why she would never have accepted. Not from him. Not yet, at least. Everything worth having, he reminded himself, was worth waiting for. Every day that passed in which he did not importune her worked in his favor. She would learn that he could be trusted, that he wasnât going to harm her. That wariness would eventually leave her eyes. Patience won all battles, revealed all secrets. If he could figure out how to reach her onceâ¦
Instead, Mark was the one reaching her. Or, rather, being Markâhe was not reaching her at all.
Because Mark wouldnât take advantage of any of those delightful opportunities to fold his hands around hers. Ash had purposefully walked by the parlor during Markâs lessons several times this past week. Heâd walked as if he hadnât cared one whit about what his brother was doing with Miss Lowell. Still, heâd managed to ascertain a great deal from the corner of his eye.
Theyâd thrown open the broad double doors, for proprietyâs sake. So far as Ash could tell, Mark had never laid so much as a fingernail on Miss Lowell. Instead, he stood a proper three yards distant. Two of the upstairs maids had joined themâat first, to serve as reluctant chaperones. But as the days had passed, theyâd joined in earnest as giggling participants. If Ashjudged the matter right, the maids were giggling, willing participants, who wished Mark would do more than instruct.
It was just like Mark, to be surrounded by women, and yet to take no advantage.
Ash wasnât sure if he was more annoyed at Mark, for stealing time with the woman who had riveted his attention, or jealous of Miss Lowell herself. After all, heâd planned these weeks as a way to spend time with his younger brother. A way to build common experience, to finally forge a connection that would bridge the many differences between them. But when Mark wasnât teaching Miss Lowell effective ways to bring a man down, he buried himself to his neck in books. The summer contained no horseback ambles across wide fields, no lazy trips to the river armed with fish hooks and bait. There were no evenings spent drinking port and discussing politics.
No; the only place Ash ever met his brother was here in the library. And to put it mildly, libraries had never been Ashâs specialty. In point of fact, he would rather dig a well for Parford Manor using a spoon made of cheese than read aboutâhe turned the volume over in his handsâ Practical Agriculture. Looking at the table of contents alone made him feel exhausted. An incipient headache formed at his temples. But he stayed here with the damned book, because when Mark was finished with Miss Lowell, he would come into the library. And before his brother threw himself headlong into his work, Ash would have a narrow opportunity to speak with him.
So he sat here, pretending to make sense of subtitles on soil.
It was another fifteen minutes before he heard Markbidding Miss Lowell farewell. She left first, walking past. She didnât even glance into the library as she went by. It had been like that for nine days, now. Ever since heâd talked to her on the path, she had flatly ignored him. For nine days,