Free At Lady Molly's by Anthony Powell

never asked Barbara Goring to marry him, because in those days he was not rich enough to marry. He read my thoughts, as people do when their intuition is sharpened by intensity of interest excited by discussing themselves.
    ‘She was left with a bit of money by Haycock,’ he said. ‘Though her financial affairs are in an appalling mess.’
    ‘I see.’
    ‘How long have you known Lady Molly?’
    ‘That was the first night I had been there.’
    ‘I wish I had known her in the great days,’ he said. ‘I cannot say that I greatly care for the atmosphere of her present home.’
    ‘You would prefer Dogdene?’
    ‘I believe that in many ways Dogdene was far from ideally run either,’ said Widmerpool curtly. ‘But at least it provided a suitable background for a grande dame. Mildred is a friend of the present Lady Sleaford, so that I dare say in due course I shall be able to judge how Lady Molly must have looked there.’
    This manner of describing Molly Jeavons somehow affronted me, not so much from disagreement, or on account of its pretentious sound, but because I had not myself given Widmerpool credit for thus estimating her qualities, even in his own crude terms. I was, indeed, surprised that he did not dismiss her as a failure, noting at the same time his certainty of invitation to Dogdene. From what Chips Lovell used to say on that subject, I was not sure that Widmerpool might not be counting his chickens before they were hatched.
    ‘It is because of Dogdene, as you know yourself, that Mildred is such an old friend of Lady Molly’s. Perhaps not a very close friend, but they have known each other a long time.’
    ‘Yes?’
    I could not guess what he was getting at.
    ‘In fact we first met at Lady Molly’s.’
    ‘I see.’
    ‘Mildred is—how shall I put it—a woman of the world like Lady Molly—but—well—hardly with Lady Molly’s easy-going manner of looking at things—I don’t mean that exactly—in some ways Mildred is very easy-going—but she likes her own way—and—in her own manner—takes life rather seriously—’
    He suddenly began to look wretched, much as I had often seen him look as a schoolboy: lonely: awkward: unpopular: odd; no longer the self-confident business-man into which he had grown. His face now brought back the days when one used to watch him plodding off through the drizzle to undertake the long, solitary runs across the dismal fields beyond the sewage farms: runs which were to train him for teams in which he was never included. His jaws ceased to move up and down. He drank off a second glass of water.
    ‘Anyway, you know General and Mrs. Conyers,’ he said.
    He added this rather lamely, as if he lacked strength of mind to pursue the subject upon which he hoped to embark.
    ‘I am going to tea with them this afternoon as it happens.’
    ‘Why on earth are you doing that?’
    ‘I haven’t seen them for a long time. We’ve known them for ages, as I told you.’
    ‘Oh, well, yes, I see.’
    He seemed disturbed by the information. I wondered whether Mrs. Conyers had already shown herself ‘against’ the marriage. Certainly she had been worried about her sister at the Jeavons house. I had supposed the sight of Widmerpool himself to have set her worst fears at rest. Even if prepared on the whole to accept him, she may have let fall some remark that evening unintentionally wounding to his self-esteem. He was immensely touchy. However, his present uneasiness appeared to be chiefly vested in his own ignorance of how much I already knew about his future wife. evidently he could not make up his mind upon this last matter. The uncertainty irked him.
    ‘Then you must have heard all about Mildred?’ he persisted.
    ‘No, not much. I only know about Mrs. Conyers, so to speak. And I have often been told stories about their father, of course. I know hardly anything about the other sisters. Mrs. Haycock was married to an Australian, wasn’t she? I knew she had two husbands, both