Free Half Lies by Sally Green

11th January, 2013
    Location: UNITED STATES OF AMERICA—Land of the Free . . .
    We’ve been in the USA for five days now. We came to Manatee County, Florida, two days ago and yesterday Dad found us a house to rent outside Bradenton. The house is cute in a small and old and battered sort of way, which is fine because that means it’s a house within our budget—well, if I’m honest, I have a strong suspicion that it’s still over our budget. But I like it. I don’t mind small or old or battered if it’s ours for more than the usual few weeks. We’ve not stayed in anything but cheap (and smelly and damp) hotels and motels for nearly ten months, and we’ve never stopped in the same place for more than a week or so. Dad thinks we can stop moving now—he thinks it’s safe: no one is chasing us.
    Still, I was wondering if Dad would change his mind and grab our bags and set off again ten minutes after we’d got the key, but he walked into the house, opened a bottle of red wine he’d got from somewhere, sat on the back step, drank the lot, and fell asleep.
    He was still asleep this morning when Gab and I went to have a look around the town. It’s a nice place, and much prettier than I was expecting. There’s an artistic community, which Mum would have loved. She was a great painter—though I have to admit Dad is even better.
    We wandered around all afternoon, but one shop stood out as its window was full of pink—pink balloons, pink lamps, pink mugs, pink vases, and there was a notebook with lots of pink ribbons on the cover. I told Gab that it was ridiculous and girly, and made fun of it. Then later this evening what should I find on my bed but this notebook with the cover of pink ribbons—he knew all along that I liked it.
     
    12th January, 2013
    Gab and I went into town again this morning. Gab said he’d treat me to lunch out (not sure where he got the money from—I’m never sure where he gets the money from). We looked in the windows of a hideous café (diner? with microwave food) and a trendy café (with vegetarian food) and a whole food artists’ café (serving only whole food artists). We even tried a bar but you have to be 21 with ID to get in (Gab already has a fake ID—how did he get that?). He went in, came straight out again, and said, “
Non
.”
    In the end we bought a few things in a small supermarket and walked home. It was nice to just be with Gab, without Dad, though we ended up talking about him, with me saying how completely useless he is.
    Gab said, “He does his best, Michèle.”
    “Well, his best is not very good, is it?”
    “He’s in shock still, I think.”
    I’m sure Gab’s right and I guess we’re all trying to get our heads round what’s happened. And I don’t want to think bad things about my dad, but I need him to be good and strong and the head of the family. Gab’s the strong one, though. Dad’s like a lost child. I’m not sure what I am. Lost too at times. I miss Mum.
     
    13th January, 2013
    Gab and I drove into Tampa, which is bigger than I expected, and it has all the sounds of America (loud voices, engines, and music). Gab wanted coffee and bookshops, and of course I wanted clothes and music, so I managed to persuade him that I’d be quite safe on my own for the afternoon. I found a mall, but it was horrid and depressing so I left. Gab said he’d meet me at a quiet coffee shop called the Bean Counter and I went there early and got talking to the barista guy, Sam (he had a name badge—this is America). Sam gave me a free chocolate chip cookie and told me where some of the better shops were when I complained about the mall.
     
    15th January, 2013
    Just caught Gab throwing out empty wine bottles from Dad’s “studio” (the room at the back with all the windows).
    I said, “I thought he was going to paint, but all he does is drink.”
    “He’s doing both, Michèle.”
    “Do you think he’s OK?”
    Gab shook his head, then asked, “Are