have to be Leia. Suddenly, I notice the room is silent, and my classmates are all peering at me, waiting. I realize Iâve been jotting down the full list of whatâs going on in my life. I also realize my teacher asked me a question.
Scrambling to cover my paper, I whisper super fast, âI wish I knew the answer.â
âNext Friday, Ms. Hemenway,â I say, proving I was listening. âYou were saying weâd have a midterm review session next Friday.â That was a close one.
From across the room, Joel gives me another confused look, and for a moment I think Iâve given the wrong answer. But my teacher seems satisfied, so I shrug and go back to my musings, again resolving I would confess all to Leia.
After school, in my car, I ask if she wants to hang out tonight.
âYeah! Want to sleep over at my house?â she asks. I start to answer yes , but she interrupts with, âOh, wait. I just remembered weâre going over to my grandparentsâ tonight. Itâs my Opaâs seventy-fifth birthday, so I canât miss it. Sorry.â
âNo, itâs fine,â I say.
âHow about tomorrow night?â
âWell, Iâll be studying with Pete in the afternoon, but after dinnerâ¦?â
âWait. Donât kill me. Luke and I are going to camp out to get that new video game tomorrow night.â
âAre you crazy? Itâs December. In New England.â
âI know, I know, but you know how we are about classic sci-fi. Plus, itâs kind of a Hanukkah present for my parents, and I promised Luke. Hey! You could come with us!â
âUh, no. Thanks. I love camping â when the temperatures are above freezing. I think Iâll pass. You know, for such a popular guy, your brother is kind of a geek.â
She gently punches me in the shoulder, and I elbow her back. Itâs an old line of teasing. I donât know what it is about those movies that bond the Hirsch family, but whatever works for them. I make a face and shrug, and direct my attention back to the street. Leiaâs still laughing as we approach her driveway. Getting out of the car, she leans her upper body back in to say, âI do want to have a sleepover. But how about a hike tomorrow morning instead?â
âSure,â I answer.
âThe forecast is calling for some snow, but you know we probably wonât get any,â she adds. âSo, letâs plan to meet at the reserve at ten.â The White Oak Reserve has a little trail through a gorgeous wild area, which starts near the back of Leiaâs property. We walked there a lot growing up, and itâs the perfect place to talk things out.
I agree to the plan, âNow close the door! Itâs wicked cold out,â I tell her, and she waves a final goodbye before slamming it shut and walking toward her house.
At last itâs Friday, and I donât have any homework due tomorrow. My motherâs diary must be in an indulgent mood, because it seems to have opened itself and is waiting for me on my bed when I get home from school.
âWhat do you have for me tonight?â I say aloud, and am rewarded.
As you know, your father and I were falling in love. He still did not know what I was, and I was afraid to tell him. Besides, I also had him in mind as my first master. Somehow, none of this was working out as I would have imagined.
After all, itâs one thing to tell the man youâve chosen as your master you can grant him three wishes, knowing heâll forget all about you when theyâve been granted. Itâs another thing to tell him you love him, you can grant him three wishes, and you never, ever want him to forget you. The bond we were forming had far transcended the professional master-genie relationship, and it broke the unspoken rules.
I didnât know what to do.
I knew with every bit of myself I wanted Matt more than anything else in the world, and I was fairly certain he