Free Sand and Clay by Sarah Robinson

loose fitted top, ran some mousse through
his hair and tousled it, and finally pulled on some black army boots. It was a
very rock and roll outfit. He didn’t like dressing that way generally, but Gina
was his manager and insisted that this needed to be his image. He was more of a
jeans and crop top kind of guy, with maybe an open sweater at most.
    Logan had a six month long tour
about to start this Friday that spanned America and even went international. It
had been scheduled for awhile but Sunday morning he had been ready to cancel it
because he didn’t want to leave New York City. However, after how poorly
yesterday went with Caroline, Logan wanted nothing more than to leave this city
and just get away from everything and completely forget about the last week. But
the prospect of going on a six month long trip with Gina by his side every
second was just a nightmare.
    Until he had met Caroline, these
things didn’t really bother him. He just didn’t care and hadn’t really invested
anything real into it, he hadn’t invested anything real into himself. He kept
his emotions hidden in his music and art instead.
    He finished getting ready and
headed out of the penthouse to go to the event for the night. Gina never went
to smaller events, she said they weren’t worth her time. So, he liked them best
because he had more control of the time and enjoyed being able to hear his own
thoughts.
    She instead would spend the night
at home planning more appearances for him as usual. She was a very hands on
manager even though that is not what she had planned in life. The two had met
at an open mike night before he had become famous and they just had an instant
sexual attraction. She was like an addictive drug to him and just was suddenly
his whole life, controlling him with her intoxicating sexuality.
    She had just finished business
school and decided that it was her mission in life to make Logan famous. She
knew that he was a painter and that he loved music, but that he didn’t see it
as his lifelong passion or career. She thought differently though and through a
lot of hard work, she got his music out there and he quickly took off to the
top of Hollywood’s A-List.
    If he was being honest with
himself, he had to admit that it has been an amazing journey becoming Logan
Clay, the Rock star. He likes the fame, he loves his music, and he enjoys the
luxurious lifestyle and he owed all of that to Gina. He still got to paint recreationally
every once in awhile so he enjoyed that, but he didn’t get to put the time into
it he really wanted to.
    Logan wasn’t sure when the romance
between Gina and him had fizzled but he just knew that it wasn’t there anymore.
When they met, they were both young and fresh faced with little life
experience. He was the unknown Logan Clay and she was the recent college
graduate, Gina Vile.
    They were about the moment and
enjoying life to the fullest, however, now Gina was all about the fame and
money. Logan couldn’t complain, he loved those things too but he resented that
they had taken the place of their romance and subsequently, their love. The
more and more fame that Gina tasted, the less time she had for them. She spent
more time with Logan Clay the brand, then Logan her boyfriend. Logan couldn’t
help feeling guilty now that he had fallen so deeply for another woman.
    He owed Gina everything, she had
made him Logan Clay, the Rock Star. He owed his entire lifestyle and career to
her and she had made him and his work her entire life. She had given up
everything for him, her entire future. She may be frustrating and controlling,
but he had to appreciate everything she had done and still does for him.
    Gina didn’t deserve him being
unfaithful and he knew that he had really stepped over a line yesterday that he
had never thought he was capable of. He had never been that type of man. Even
as a celebrity who tabloids liked to make into a womanizer and print all types
of picture with him even standing