Free For Today I Am a Boy by Kim Fu Page B

remembered it as a serious drama, not a slapstick where William Holden’s character is tricked into sitting on the champagne glasses in his pockets. I chose to watch only a few parts over and over again. Hepburn pacing in an organza Givenchy gown and pearl teardrop earrings. Hepburn in black slacks and a black shirt that plunges down her back. Soon I could remember Adele’s features only in black-and-white. Sabrina goes to Europe to become even more sophisticated, even more perfect. She goes for love.
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    Adele and August moved into a house in Berlin that was occupied, though not owned, by a large group of friends. It had once been a single-family manor with two stairwells in the front hall that led to what might be called wings. A spray-painted mural dominated the hall, an abstract image of blue and orange cubes. Ordinary graffiti of names and tags was scribbled on top. Adele thought this was sad; August called it “living art.”
    These friends promised to find Adele work, but nothing materialized. They needed the jobs for themselves. They came and went in extreme numbers. Each morning when Adele woke up, there were more people than there’d been the night before—they must have been hiding in some unknown cavern of the house. With nothing to do, Adele became the den mother. She cleaned the red, foul-smelling mold that grew over the rice cooker. She washed people’s clothes in the sink and hung them to dry all over the house. To walk around, one had to push aside the damp shirts and sheets suspended from every lamp, doorway, and surface, like parting overgrown plants in a jungle. She rolled their unconscious bodies into positions in which they were less likely to choke on tongues or vomit. She made food that could be reheated easily for large groups at strange hours: meatless stews and soups, beans cooked until gray and earthy as mulch.
    A very young girl lived in the house. She had renamed herself Cherry and was the house pet. She spent most of her time sprawled on the furniture or the floor, reading magazines or sleeping. Adele had to clean around her. Adele thought Cherry looked like a baby, with her plump arms and legs and her flabby, shapeless breasts. She had bright red cheeks and a stoned-looking smile; she took whatever drugs were handed to her with the lazy entitlement of a queen.
    August started sleeping with Cherry. Everyone but Adele showered rarely and briefly, and hot water in the house was scarce. (
They call me the jealous American,
she wrote.
The jealous American who takes long, wasteful showers.
) As a result, August smelled like Cherry when he returned to the bed he shared with Adele: sample perfumes from magazines covering the chalky, sour scent of teenage sweat.
He plays it off as the nature of the house. As though the house is to blame. A free exchange of bodies and love and ideas.
    And as Adele scrubbed a stain from one of Cherry’s childish, printed dresses, she thought that that would not be so bad, if it were true. If everyone fucked everyone and they all slept in a heap like rats. She thought of a man with a narrow, sullen face she had seen pacing the hallways of the east wing; it would be all right if she could have him, as easy as she pleased, offer herself up as an exotic feast, a platter of mangoes and pineapple and near-poisonous fish.
    But it wasn’t true. It was just August and Cherry and August and Adele, a triangle with nothing profound or freeing about it.
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    August offered to marry Adele to simplify her immigration. She agreed. It was a matter of paperwork and translation in a
Standesamt.
Two women from the house witnessed with stoic disinterest.
    After, they all went to an illegal nightclub in an abandoned building. Christmas lights were wound around the pipes and airshaft. A large hole in one wall near the ceiling showed a fragment of sky and let in a wintry draft. There was broken glass on the floor from an unknown source. The crowd did not