one rushed to the windows.
But after a while I walked to the front win-
dow to look out and see the moon rising. I
looked up to see it over the trees, bright and
beautiful. I stood, staring through the
window.
And what was this? In the high left corner,
small small, a crack. Visible if one looked but
nothing terribly noticeable. Still, a crack. We
had done it. We broke the window. Not shat-
tered, not busted, but broken nonetheless. In
the end, I’m glad it was small. The perfect
result in all ways. We did what we set out to
do but the window could stay, as it had, for
nearly a century. We could still see the grass
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wave, convoluted, from the thickened bot-
tom. The glass, as originally placed, would
continue on. Of that, too, I was glad.
Because, if you get very close, if you listen
very carefully and very near, on a quiet, quiet
day, you can hear the recorded hundred
years—the rumbling cars and trucks, shoes
on raised wood floors, thunder and pelting
rain, laughter, the harmony in the broken
glass.
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Fifty Years
Had I been born fifty years earlier
I would sit in a café in Paris,
Trade wit, find work writing copy
And critique, adventure in the arts
and love,
Drink dark coffee and absinthe.
I would meet people in occluded rooms,
Crowded stations, and hush
Listen carefully, I will only say this once, Pass small slips with single names,
Hide men in my attic,
Wonder about tomorrow.
Had I been born fifty years earlier
I would say the proper brucha
Each morning, listen to my papa,
Go to yeshiva, study Talmud,
Marry whom I was told.
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I would look toward the steppes
And one day see the horses,
My small town in smoke,
My footprints and cart tracks behind
me,
Hope for a ticket of passage,
Wonder about tomorrow.
Had I been born fifty years earlier
I would go to school
In the town with everyone else,
Shop in the markets,
Consider myself a citizen.
I would one day hear the crashing
windows,
See the walls built, the paint flow,
The armbands and the army trucks,
Wonder what we had done,
Avoid the uniforms,
Wonder about tomorrow.
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Yahrzeit
This, today, August 29th, 2010, is the
one-year anniversary of my mother’s
death. Yahrzeit .
I could not write this. But I could say this.
I dictated it and a friend, a good friend, for
who else would do such a thing, typed it while
I talked. He also made what edits and proofs
were needed. He did this to save me the pain
of a careful reading. Thanks, Craig.
I read it anyway.
I do not say this is what happened. What
is here is truth but may not be fact. It is what I remember from two days that are hard to
remember. I have added things as I recall
them. Still, maybe I got something wrong.
Maybe I got something backward. Maybe I
made a mistake. Maybe someone will be mad.
Maybe they’ll get over it. Maybe they won’t.
It doesn’t matter.
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My brother called me that Thursday and told
me my mother was in the hospital, or that
she was going into the hospital, I actually
don’t quite remember which one. I said I
would try to get down the next week or so,
and he said he thought it was important I get
down there in the next day and so. I left the
next morning.
My mother had Parkinson’s Disease, had it
for about fifteen years. For the last two years
she’d had trouble speaking, and she seemed
more and more trapped. She had brain sur-
gery, which really didn’t work for much more
than two or three weeks at a time. I think she
hadn’t walked in probably a good year.
So I called my daughter and asked Sef if I
could stay with overnight at her place. She
was living in Deerfield Beach and my mother
was in the hospital in Coral Springs, about
twenty minutes away. I also asked if she
would meet me at the hospital. And she said
of course she would. So I drive down and I
got there around 11, and Sef met me