if there was a problem, and tears welled in the drunkâs eyes as he pointed to the roadbed. The carcass of a dog, hit by a passing car, lay in the dusty gravel. Jude went over, knelt beside the animal, and saw that the neck had been snappedâthe dog, about the size and shape of a greyhound, lay at a violent angle, blood crusting its head, its eyes dull, chest still. Aguacateros , they were called, the stray mutts that slinked around everywhere, the males fully packaged, the females bearing swollen teats from nonstop litters. This one, he noticed, was a female. And apparently, somehow, somewhere, sheâd found a friend. Or the friend had found her.
The vagabundo shuffled up behind, muttering a slur of heartbreak and anger. Jude said he was going to move the body a little farther off the roadâout of respect, to spare it being crushed by another passing carâand the man mewled his thanks. Jude reached under the skeletal body, lifted the dead animal in his armsâso light, he thought, she wouldâve died of starvation soon regardlessâand carried her toward a bed of chichipince and set her down in the dense, dry vinery. The vagabundo followed and perched himself uneasily on a nearby stone, reaching down to stroke her cold flank.
Jude thought about asking her name, but didnât want to inherit her ghost, so he merely whispered, âLo lamentoâ âIâm sorryâand squeezed the manâs shoulder, his hand coming away with grimy dust that he wiped against his shirttail as he walked back to the truck.
He climbed behind the wheel and Eileen said, âI feel awful about what I said when you were getting out. What you did just now, it was â¦â She screwed up her face, trying to think of the one word that would absolve all the others. âI donât know. Iâm just sorry.â
The darkness remained still except for the wind shivering through the trees overhead, the waves throbbing at the bottom of the hill.
âYou must think Iâm terrible,â she said.
âI think weâre all terrible.â He turned the key in the ignition and waited till the six-cylinder kicked back to life with an oily cough of black smoke out the tailpipe. âBut only some of us are sorry, and thatâs the problem.â
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They continued on in silence and in time passed an evangelical church girded with whitewashed stone, the landmark Jude had been waiting for. He slowed for the steep turn into La Perlaâa village of rustic-to-shabby homes made of brick or cinder block with barbed wire coiled around every yard, every rooftop, even the central pen housing the communityâs chickens. Heâd driven right past it at least twice during his search for Eileen way back when, one of dozens of tiny coastal pueblitos along the Carretera del Litoral he hadnât given a second thought. No way he couldâve checked out every village, and yet he still felt unlucky. If youâd found her then, he thought, the spat you just had wouldâve been over a month ago.
âJust follow this road back all the way to the beach,â Eileen said, pointing the way. Then her hand reached across the seat and squeezed Judeâs knee. âLook, I want to clear the air, make sure you realize how sorry I am for some of the things I said.â
âItâs not necessary. Really.â
âI just wanted to explain where peopleâs heads are at, mine included. I donât hold you personally responsible or anything for how things are down here, okay? Iâm not that dense. And I shouldnât have gone on and on the way I did, either. I was just bothered by the way Aleris treated you and I get chatty when Iâm nervous.â
Jude liked the sound of that but he liked the feel of her hand more. He felt stirring in the bone zone and squirmed a little to squelch it as she added, âItâs not like I donât know where youâre coming from. Like I said,
Landon Dixon, Giselle Renarde, Beverly Langland