she
but it’s life said he
but your wife said she
now said he)
ow said she
(tiptop said he
don’t stop said she
oh no said he)
go slow said she
(cccome? said he
ummm said she)
you’re divine! said he
(you are Mine said she)
Adultery
Carol Ann Duffy
Wear dark glasses in the rain.
Regard what was unhurt
as though through a bruise.
Guilt. A sick, green tint.
New gloves, money tucked in the palms,
the handshake crackles. Hands
can do many things. Phone.
Open the wine. Wash themselves. Now
you are naked under your clothes all day,
slim with deceit. Only the once
brings you alone to your knees,
miming, more, more, older and sadder,
creative. Suck a lie with a hole in it
on the way home from a lethal, thrilling night
up against a wall, faster. Language
unpeels a lost cry. You’re a bastard.
Do it do it do it. Sweet darkness
in the afternoon; a voice in your ear
telling you how you are wanted,
which way, now. A telltale clock
wiping the hours from its face, your face
on a white sheet, gasping, radiant, yes.
Pay for it in cash, fiction, cab-fares back
to the life which crumbles like a wedding-cake.
Paranoia for lunch; too much
to drink, as a hand on your thigh
tilts the restaurant. You know all about love,
don’t you. Turn on your beautiful eyes
for a stranger who’s dynamite in bed, again
and again; a slow replay in the kitchen
where the slicing of innocent onions
scalds you to tears. Then, selfish autobiographical sleep
in a marital bed, the tarnished spoon of your body
stirring betrayal, your heart over-ripe at the core.
You’re an expert, darling; your flowers
dumb and explicit on nobody’s birthday.
So write the script – illness and debt,
a ring thrown away in a garden
no moon can heal, your own words
commuting to bile in your mouth, terror –
and all for the same thing twice. And all
for the same thing twice. You did it.
What. Didn’t you. Fuck. Fuck. No. That was
the wrong verb. This is only an abstract noun.
The Dark Night of the Sole
Kit Wright
‘My husband’s an odd fish,’ she said.
A casual remark
And yet it lingered in my head
And later, when we went to bed,
It woke me in the dark.
My husband’s an odd fish.
I lay
Uneasy. On the ceiling
Raw lorry lights strobe-lit the grey
Glimmer of dawn. Sleepless dismay
Revolved upon the feeling
Of something wrong in what I’d heard,
Some deep, unhappy thing,
Some
odder
fact her statement blurred.
And then a prickling horror stirred
Within me as the wing
Of madness brushed. I recognized
The real thing strange to be
Not dorsal structure (fins disguised)
Nor travel habits (route revised:
A Day Return to sea)
But that he was a fish at all!
Trembling, I left the bed
Dressed quickly, tiptoed through the hall,
Edged past him, gaping from his stall
Of oval water, fled
To where I sit and write these lines,
Sweating. I saw and heard
Strange things last night. Cold guilt defines
The moral: learn to read the signs –
She was an odd, odd bird.
‘The expense of spirit in a waste of shame’
William Shakespeare
The expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action: and till action, lust
Is perjur’d, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust;
Enjoy’d no sooner but despised straight;
Past reason hunted; and no sooner had,
Past reason hated, as a swallow’d bait,
On purpose laid to make the taker mad:
Mad in pursuit and in possession so;
Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme;
A bliss in proof, – and prov’d, a very woe;
Before, a joy propos’d; behind a dream.
All this the world well knows; yet none knows well
To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.
Cyber Infidelity
Jane Holland
Beautiful lover, still beautiful
because unseen, as far apart
as two incalculable griefs
on either side of a war, cast
the broken parts of