Free Ruining Me by Nicole Reed Page A

deal with him. 
     
    After the final bell rang, I walk out to my car and groan when I see the white piece of paper stuck under my windshield.   Part of me d oesn’t want to read it, but then ther e is that sick sadistic part that need s to see what he’ll type next.  I grab the note and open it.
     
    I missed you yesterday .  I dreamed about you.  Do you have sweet dreams about me?
     
    My breath caught in my lungs.  I look around to see if anyone was watching me.  Was he watching me?  There were so many students going out to their cars and just hanging in the parking lot.  I toss it to the ground like and get into my car .  As I was try ing to calm down , my car d oor was jerked open and Rhye stands the re staring down at me . 
     
    “Can we talk?”
     
    I gri t my teeth and reply , “ We have nothing to talk a bout.  I’m done with you Rhye.”  I push him away and try to close the door, but he tug s the door back open .
     
    “Damn Jay, just try to listen to me for a couple of seconds.  I really shouldn’t have said that the other night, but when I s aw you with that guy , I just went a little crazy , ” he said
     
    “Leave me alone Rhye,” I yell and am finally a ble to push him away .  Pushing the lock button , I start my car up and drive away. 
     
    Going straight home I finally check my phone when I get there.  My heart hurts when I see t here are still no calls or messages from Kane.  It’s hard to believe that I only met him a week ago.  Can you miss someone that you don’t really k now?  I went up to my room and f a ll across my bed.  When I close my eyes I c an see him clearly in my mind.  I imagine feel ing his hard chest underneath my fingers.  No guy that I had been with had a body like his, but it wasn’t just his bod y I was thinking about.  I want to get to know him better.  Hell, I j ust want to hear his voice.  L istening to him talk the other night gave me chill bumps.   He probably never want s to see me again and I couldn’t blame him. 
     
    The last two years , I ha ve fought for control of my life.  I used sex to control one aspect of it and never opened my heart to another relationship .  I said who and w hen , t hen I could walk away with my secrets kept to myself, but I a lso walked away alone.  So what am I doing with Kane?  He do esn’t want a relationship or does he?  Did I?  Now I’m not sure anymore.  I’ve kept my secrets this long.  Could I keep them forever and live with them?
     
    “Damn,” I yell into the empty room.  Screw this , I thought a s I roll off the bed and walk into my bathroom to shower.   After getting cleaned , I decide I was going out.  This was my life and I decided last year to live it up while I’m here.  I curl my hair and put on a little make up.  I went in to my closet and grab my favorite little black dress and a killer pair of black sling backs.  Spraying my body down wi th my coconut body spray , I smile at the reflection in my mirror.  It’s funny because I’m starting to see the girl I once was and I thought she was long gone.  Glancing once more I turn and r u n down the stairs and out to my car. 
     
    Driving downtown it didn’t take long for me to get to O’Malley’s and park .  It was Friday night and I wasn’t sure if Kane was working tonight or not.  Either way I was going in.  I flash my ID to t he bouncer outside and he smiles and let s me through .  The bar was always crazy after nine at night no matter what day of the week it was , but with it being the start to the weekend it was packed mostly with the college crowd.  I made my way to the bar and was glad to see that it was Jill working tonight.  She smiled at me a s I sat down on a stool.
     
    “What up Girlie?  Are you meeting up with Kane tonight?”
     
    I cut my eyes at her and say , “ No, I guess you can say it didn’t work out.  Jill , please do me a favor and not mention it.  I’ve had a shit week . I’m just