Free Friendships hurt by Julia Averbeck

 
     
     
    Friendships
hurt
     
    By Julia
Averbeck
     
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    Copyright August 2011, Julia
Averbeck
     
    Cover by Julia
Averbeck
     
     
     
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    I don’t think it is
possible to be close friends with a guy, especially when he has a
girlfriend. Someone always gets hurt and most of the times that
someone is you. You probably think I am cynical now but I know it
is true because I have made this experience myself.
    Maybe I should tell you
the whole story from the beginning because it will be easier for
you to understand how this realisation suddenly dawned on me. I
think the best way to start is by telling you who I am.
     
     
    My name is Mary-Ann
Maloni and I am 24 years old.
    I know exactly what you
are thinking now. Who has such a stupid name? I blame my parents
for it since I’m five and you’re welcome to blame them too but now
back to my story.
    I grew up as an only
child and I guess my parents spoiled me a lot but that’s probably
normal for parents with only one daughter. I was their princess,
their most important thing in the world. My childhood was great and
I loved every minute of it but it was always hard for me to find
friends.

    I really don’t know why
it was like this but I often felt alone which was the reason why I
started to read. Most of the times I was running around with a book
in my hand and I even read while I was walking but back to not
having many friends. Of course I had friends but it never felt like
having the one best friend every girl should have. There were
always other people who were closer to the persons whom I called
friends. Maybe it was my fault but I didn’t know what to change and
it made me sad from time to time.
    I finished school with
good grades and started studying. There I met new people, found new
friends but still it didn’t feel like I had found a friend with
whom I could talk about everything. By now I was quite used to it,
so I didn’t mind that much anymore. Anything was better than always
being alone and doing everything on your own. When I got the chance
to go abroad for a practical semester I grabbed the opportunity
with both hands and was excited to get out of my familiar
surroundings and see something new. Deep inside me I had the hope
to find a true friend there.
    It was better than I
had expected. I liked my work, I had nice co-workers and I was able
to see a new city. It was summer and the weather was nice, so I was
able to explore everything in my free time. Soon I met new people
with whom I spent my time, had fun and was able to enjoy the
summer. And then there was this guy.
    He was my supervisor at
work and I really liked him. When I had questions he was always
patient with me and it was great to work with him because I learned
a lot. I discovered that we had a lot in common. We liked the same
books or movies which always gave us something to talk about and I
opened up to him. Opening up takes some time for me because I have
to know the person quite well to do so which should tell you
something about me liking him. We became friends and that was all I
wanted.
    I guess, I had a secret
crush on him but I never showed that because he had a girlfriend
and I am not someone who breaks a relationship apart. Who could
blame me? He was good looking, easy to talk to and funny at the
same time but I knew that I couldn’t have him. That was alright for
me because all I really wanted was a friend.
    We had a great time and
I would say we still finished a lot of work. I told him things
which I haven’t told anybody else and it was