flesh and blood. âI keep forgetting whatâs vegan and whatâs not.â
Avery saved me from schooling her. âKeira, vegans donât eat anything that comes from an animal, and that includes dairy, which includes milk, which is turned into butter or cheese.â
I needed to get back into the kitchen before I said something that would get me in trouble. âWell, let me get started on another plate of the fettuccine,â I told Dominique.
âOh, donât trouble yourself,â she said. âI had two bites, and thatâs really all I allow myself of overly rich food. But on the next order, remember that a toothsome pasta is neither too soft nor too firm. And, sweetie,â she whispered, âthe salmon walls are a bit too orange. A more subtle shade would work better. And the silverware could be a hair heavier. Just a hair.â She smiled at me.
I had spent hours torturing the paint mixer at Home Depot to create that exact shade of shimmery persimmon. âPerhaps itâs a generational thing,â I blurted out.
She fixed a death stare on me. âYes,â she drawled out. âItâs like I always say. Youth is absolutely wasted on the young.â
Zach was staring at me with an expression that implored, Not. Another. Word.
I forced myself to smile and headed back into the kitchen. The moment I stepped inside the noisy, bustling space, I felt instantly more at peace.
âI will keep my mouth shut. I will keep my mouth shut,â I said to my sous chef, Alanna. âI will slowly count to five.â
âI wonât even ask,â Alanna said, sliding mushrooms into a pinging hot pan.
I counted to five. I breathed. I focused on the next orders, pouring olive oil in a pan to help my vegetable chef keep up with the demand for the roasted vegetable skewers.
âClem? You okay?â came Zachâs voice from behind me.
I closed my eyes for a second. No way would I admitâeven to myselfâthat his mother had gotten to me. I turned around and smiled. âIâm fine. No worries. Go finish your dinner.â I gave his hand a squeeze.
âClem. Youâre forgetting that I know you.â
âThe pasta was perfect,â I whispered, hating how stung I really felt. âI made sure of it.â
âIâm sure it was. Sheâs just . . . difficult. Look, youâre my brand-new fiancée. Sheâs my mother. Just ignore her when she gets to you. Donât even bother engaging. Okay?â
For a second, as I looked at Zach, this guy whom I lovedso much, I felt all the anger whoosh out of me. But a moment later, it was back.
I motioned for one of the McMann twins to take over my pan. âZach, if she insults me, I canât just not say anything.â
âYou can try. For me. âLetting it goâ is how she and I manage to have a relationship. If I want her in my lifeâand I doâI need to accept her. When she crosses a line, believe me, I tell her.â
His expression changed for a second, and I realized he was talking about the incident that had blown up their relationship a few years ago. She had crossed a lineâI had no idea over what. And heâd told her. The result? They hadnât spoken for three years.
âI have to pick my battles, Clem. That means letting go of whatâs really just nonsense.â
Letting it go wasnât in my vocabulary, though. Since Zach and I had been together, Iâd listened to his stories about his mother, how difficult she was, how long it had taken him to accept that she was who she was. That meant not jumping on every misstep she made. But my motto was more along the lines of Start as you mean to go on.
âIâll try,â I said. âBut just like you donât expect her to change who she is, donât expect me to change who I am.â
âI donât want you to change,â he said, pulling me close. âI love you just