Free The Madness Of Lord Ian Mackenzie by Jennifer Ashley Page A

happened.”
    “I realize that. I’m overwhelmed.”
    “Why should it overwhelm you?”
    “My dear Lord Ian, the paid companion is the last person anyone thinks to spare gossip about. She is drab and faded—her own fault, really, that no one wanted to marry her.”
    “Who the devil told you that?”
    “Dear Mrs. Barrington, although she didn’t put it quite like that. I should be demure and forgettable, she said. She had the best of intentions. She was trying to protect me, you see.”
    “No.” He stared at her, his gaze resting on a curl over her ear. “I don’t see.”
    “That’s all right. You don’t need to.”
    Ian went silent again, lost in his own thoughts. Then he looked at her abruptly, crushed her to him, and pressed a swift kiss to her mouth.
    Before Beth could gasp, he stood her bodily aside and strode out of the room. Beth stood still, her lips burning, until the cold draft from the slamming front door announced that he’d gone.
    “Darling, how lovely,” Isabella said that evening, holding out her arm so her maid could slide a glove up it. “You and Ian.” Her green eyes danced, but shadows stained her face.
    “I am so pleased.”
    “Nothing lovely about it,” Beth said. “I am being horribly scandalous.”
    Isabella gave her a knowing smile. “Whatever you say. I shall wait avidly for further news on the subject.”
    “Do you not have a ball to attend, Isabella?”
    Isabella kissed Beth’s cheeks, bathing her in a wash of perfume. “Are you sure you don’t mind me running off, my dear? I hate to leave you alone.”
    “No, no. Go and enjoy yourself. I’m rather tired tonight, and I don’t mind time to gather my thoughts.”
    Beth wanted a quiet night, not feeling up to the scrutiny of Paris this evening, even with Isabella’s protection. Isabella knew “absolutely everyone,” and had introduced Beth around with enthusiasm. Isabella hinted that Beth was a mysterious heiress from England, which seemed to go over well with the artists, writers, and poets that flocked to Isabella. Tonight Beth was willing to forgo the glamour. She would write about her day in her journal, then retire and indulge in fantasies about Ian Mackenzie. She had no business indulging in fantasies about him, but she didn’t care.
    Once Isabella had gone, Beth asked the butler to serve her a cold supper in her chamber. Then she took up a pen and turned to her diary.
    She’d begun an account of her adventures in Paris, which she scribbled about whenever she had a moment. As she chewed leftover meat pie, she flipped to clean pages at the end of the notebook.
    I’m not certain how he makes me feel, she wrote. His hands are large and strong, and I wanted too much for him to lift them to my bosom. I wanted to press my breasts inside his palms. I wanted to feel the heat of his bare hands against my nipples. My body shouted for it, but I refused its wishes, knowing it was impossible in that time and place. Does that mean I wish him to do such things in another time and place?
    I want to unbutton my frock for him. I want him to unlace my stays and ease them from my body. I want him to touch me as I haven’t been touched in years. I ache for it. I do not think of him as Lord Ian Mackenzie, aristocratic brother of a duke and well beyond my reach; not as the Mad Mackenzie, an eccentric people stare at and whisper about.
    To me, he is simply Ian.
    “Madam,” Katie bleated from the doorway.
    Beth jumped and slammed her notebook closed. “Good heavens, Katie, you startled me. Is something wrong?”
    “Footman says a gentleman’s called to see you.”
    Beth rose. Her skirt caught a spoon and sent it clattering to the floor. “Who? Lord Ian?”
    “I would have said so right away if it was him, wouldn’t I? No, Henri says it’s a gent from the police.”
    Beth’s brows rose. “The police? Why should the police want to see me?”
    “I don’t know, madam. Says he’s an inspector or something, and he’s English,