Free A Proper Marriage by Doris Lessing Page A

core, all of them.’
He was jettisoning them all! Martha, very shocked, said feebly, ‘They are human beings, after all.’
‘So they are,’ he said with his brisk jeer, his black eyes snapping scorn. ‘So they are. We are all human beings, and everyone is as good as everyone else, all born equal in the sight of God.’
‘Well, you brought in God, I didn’t. What’s God got to do with it?’
They were now as awkward with hostility as they had been a few moments before with friendship.
‘Anyway, there are a few hundred Coloureds, and several million Africans - what’s the point of it?’
‘We’d have lived in the location, but it’s against the law. So we chose the next best thing.’
‘Rubbish, you only came to live here because people’d be shocked, that’s all.’
He tapped the long bony fingers on the arm of his chair and yawned. It was not for some seconds that she realized the yawn was deliberate. At once she got up and said, ‘I’ll go. I’ve got things to do.’
‘Your housewifely duties?’ he asked sarcastically.
She stood behind her chair, looking regretfully at this pleasant room, the books, feeling the atmosphere of dedicated freedom, feeling herself an exile. But she felt something else too: a deep pity for him. He seemed all at once very young and absurd.
‘Well,’ she said flatly, ‘when the war comes, that’ll be the end of it. But it’ll be nice while it lasts.’
He regarded her in silence, apparently considering whether she was worth the trouble he might decide to take.Then he said, ‘Now, listen, Matty, I shall now give you a short lecture on the international situation.’ He grinned savagely, and she smiled back gratefully. She noted at the same time, half consciously, that he, unlike his brother, could take nothing seriously. That was how she felt it: the jaunty self-consciousness, the invisible quotation marks around his phrases, the drawled ‘situ-a-tion’, gave her a strong feeling of disbelief.
She stood, however, behind her chair and listened. He spoke for some ten minutes, as if he were delivering a lecture, but in the harsh, flat language of controlled cynicism, which chimed in very well with what she felt herself. And although the picture he presented of what was happening in Europe was cold, simple and logical, that harshness and cynicism could only feed her own. So that when he had finished she said drily, ‘Well, whichever way it goes, there’ll be a war, won’t there?’
‘Well?’
She shrugged, avoiding the hard aggressiveness of that black stare.
He began to jeer again. ‘Yes, poor Matty, life is hard, life isn’t easy. People get killed, the cows get into the rose garden, violence keeps popping up its ugly head.’
She remarked irrelevantly, ‘My father was in the last war. He talks about it.’
He stared. ‘Well?’ Then, in a flat, angry voice, quite different from any she had heard from him - for the first time carrying the conviction of deep personal feeling: ‘And the Jews are in the concentration camps. Who cares? Do you? If the British Government wanted, they could stop it all in a month - if they wanted. As for you,’ and here he mimicked her doubting, hesitant voice, ‘all you say is, Don’t let’s have any nastiness, please let everything be comfortable.’
She was now so confused by all this hostility - for it was clear that she had become for him the enemy he hated most - that she could only say, ‘Well, Solly …’ and tailed off into silence.
He was now waiting for her to go. She asked, ‘What do you hear from Joss?’
‘We don’t write.’
She went towards the door.
‘He’s joined the Communist Party,’ she heard.
‘Well, I thought he was a Communist anyway.’
‘He’s joined it, that’s quite different from talking.’
There was such spite in his voice that she turned and inquired, ‘Why, do you mind him joining?’ Then she saw it was directed against herself. He picked up a newspaper from beside him and handed it to