tried to meddle in my love life. If I could even call Dylan a love life. At one time, Iâd had a crush on him, definitely. But these days I could barely hold a conversation with him. All he ever wanted to talk about was lacrosse and video games. I wasnât even sure I was attracted to him anymore, not like Iâd say that in front of my parents, who would freak outâthey loved me dating a state senatorâs son. We were HFâs resident power couple, and my parents, themselves popular in high school, wouldnât accept me dating someone beneath my social station. âItâs not about Dylan. Itâs about school work . . .â
âWell, you shouldnât worry about that. If need be, you could repeat eleventh grade, just to make sure you had everything in place,â my dad said.
âI canât repeat eleventh grade.â The idea was hideous. Hansen had said it herself: The sooner you get to college, the sooner you can be your own person.
âThereâs no stigma. Itâs very common when people transfer to Bertrand,â my dad explained, patiently, like he was talking to an elderly client. âThe curriculum is so sophisticated that some students need a catch-up.â
âI canât. I wonât. Besides, the eighteenth is in two weeks and I have exams, I have papers. We have the prom to plan, and the yearbook . . .â
My mom raised her eyebrow at my dad and nodded subtly, like Let me do this. âDonât you see that youâre holding on to a sinking ship, Dakota? Haverford Friends might not be around next fall, and even if it is, there will be cuts. There will be fewer teachers, no activities, no SAT prep. â
âIâm already taking private SAT prep,â I pointed out.
âBut you might want to avail yourself of the schoolâs SAT prep as well next year. You never know. You want to have options. The point is this: Youâve worked way too hard to give up everything now. Also, Bertrand is not too far from Brown, and Hansen said she could come visit you on the weekends. Or you could visit her when you donât have to study.â
âYou talked to Hansen about this before mentioning it to me?â That was the ultimate.
âI wanted her input,â my mom said.
âHow about my input? This is my life!â
âYouâre getting all worked up,â my dad said, setting down his espresso glass with a tiny little clink. âI told you we should wait on this, Monica. At least until after the school day. Now sheâs going to be distracted.â
âYouâre right. I will be distracted.â I nervously ran both my hands through my hair, messing up the twenty minutes Iâd spent arranging it. âYou guys donât understand. I have enough to worry about right now. I donât want to think about switching, and even if I did, I canât handle applying to some other school. Itâs too much work.â
âWe can take care of it for you,â my dad said.
âThat would be cheating.â Was he losing his mind? âBesides, Iâm responsible for too many things. People are depending on me, and it would be selfish for me to just bail out. Iâm the council vice president. Ms. Coyle said Iâm supposed to help keep up the spirits of the students.â
âShe said that?â My mom shook her head in disgust. âThatâs her job. Your job is, simply, to be the best. And youâre doing that, sweetie. Which is why I donât want you to throw it all away out of some misplaced loyalty.â
âItâs not misplaced. Iâve been at HF since pre-kindergarten. You always told me that I had to wear my colors proudly. And Iâm doing that.â They were the ones who'd encouraged me to care so much. They were the ones who'd told me to get so involved and devote myself to the schoolâs motto. And now they wanted me to throw all that away and think only of