Free Talker's Graduation by Amy Lane

had brought it home and shown it to Brian, and
    Brian had bought a magnetic frame and put it on the refrigerator,
    and Tate had loved him all over again, because he would know
    how much it meant.
    So for two years he"d known Shelley. Brian had given the kids
    a display in his last two art shows, and Tate had loved him more for
    it, if that was even possible. They had another display this time as
    well, and Shelley had made a piece that looked like one of Talker"s
    half-gloves, because they fascinated her, and she spent time
    designing something that would go over the lump of scar tissue on
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    her thin upper arm, so she could wear a dress that would make
    Prince Charming happy.
    Talker told her that a real Prince Charming wouldn"t care
    about the scars.
    Shelley told him that she"d try to hide them anyway.

    TATE tried not to let it hurt too bad. JoEllen was right—he’d known
    the system, had lived the system, and knew that sometimes the
    best people were not always in charge of a child’s welfare. Shelley
    was with her parents now, and when she was with them, they
    pulled her away from the foster care system entirely, like they could
    somehow remove the fact that they’d screwed up and make it
    disappear. He told himself he should be happy for her, because
    most of the kids there dreamed that Mom and Dad would come
    back and make it all up to them, but his eyes were blurry as he put
    on his wetsuit and surf shoes and grabbed his board, and he barely
    noticed the shock of the ocean as he ran in.
    He swam out past the fury of the breakers and into the calm
    and sat for a while, pinching his eyes closed and trying to get it the
    hell together. His feet were starting to chill through the suit and the
    shoes, and the motion of the board was starting to lull him
    practically to sleep again when he saw Brian through his misery,
    and his eyes cleared.
    When he wasn’t working on clay, Brian still held his shoulder
    like it might hurt a little. In the evenings, Tate would hear the tell-
    tale clatter of the pills in the ibuprofen bottle and know that it had to
    be aching pretty bad, but Brian never complained. He’d filled out
    since Talker had first seen him, a beautiful, square-jawed, blue-
    eyed piece of dreamboy, sitting alone on a track meet bus. His
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    chest was broader, and his hips had stayed narrow because they
    still ran and surfed nearly every day, but Tate could tell that when
    he got older, Brian would have to work hard at not being stocky.
    Tate sort of looked forward to that. Brian was always so solid; it
    would be wonderful if he looked as solid in the flesh as he felt to
    Tate in his heart.
    But his hair was still a little long because he cut it short and
    then let it grow until he couldn’t stand it anymore, and his eyes
    were still that guileless cornflower blue, and he still looked at Talker
    like he was the best and only boy Brian had ever seen. As far as
    Talker knew, Brian would grow old and die and never really see
    another boy, and that was just fine with Talker. Talker was pretty
    sure he’d never see another man ever in the same way he saw
    Brian.
    A larger swell than usual buoyed Tate up and then dropped
    him in the trough, and Tate thought that maybe he should ride the
    next one in. Surfing hadn’t come easy to either of them, but being
    out in the cold sea, riding it home—that had felt so powerful. Maybe
    it was because they were used to being knocked over by waves,
    and it had happened so many times to the both of them, but finally
    being able to ride a wave in, to stay on top of things, and know that
    they could get up even if they got knocked down—that meant a hell
    of a lot to the two of them.
    Tate wiped his eyes one more time, and looked out for the
    next good wave. Shelley was still on his mind, but he would live
    with the worry. She was tough. She might get knocked down, but
    she could pick herself up again. And