shift, and the door swings open. Poncho Man smiles at me, briefly glancing at the cash in my hand. âHello, Mim.â
Still kneeling, I remain frozen, reduced to the role of Busty Blonde in my own slasher. âWhat are you doing in here?â I ask. His leg brushes my knee as he steps to the faucet and runs his hands under the water. Thinking back, I donât remember a flush.
âOh, I find the ladiesâ room to be much more serene. You should see the menâs room. Makes this dump look like the Ritz.â He wipes his hands on his poncho, then turns toward me and tilts his head. âI meant what I said, Mim. Your haircut is beautiful. And also, sort ofâinevitable? Is that the right word?â
Go, Mary. Now.
I regain motion, stuff everything back in my bag, and start for the door. âIâm leaving.â
He steps in front of it, blocking me in. âNot yet.â
Breathe, Mary.
I push my bangs out of my eyes, push the panic down, push, push, push . . . âIâll scream,â I say.
âIâll tell on you.â
I flinch. âYouâll what?â
âI overheard your little convo with Ed out thereâyou wouldnât drink Hills Brothers Original Blend if your life depended on it. Which means that coffee can I just sawââhe points to my backpackââisnât yours. Ergo, whatâs
inside
probably isnât either.â
His words are ice. They hit my gut first, then spread in all directions, filling my ears, elbows, knees, toesâthe extremities of Mim, once a balmy ninety-eight point six, now a glacial effigy. Until this moment, the uncomfortable nearness of Poncho Man had been held at bay by other passengers and locks on doors. Now, itâs just us. There are no devices, no buffers. He stands there, taller than I remember, bulkier, blocking my way to the safety of my pack. I feel his eyes on me now, trailing from my hair, down my body, lingering in places they donât belongâand for the first time in a long time, I feel like a helpless girl.
He steps closer. âYou are beautiful, you know.â
Iâm shivering now, my bones and blood on full alarmâitâs a primordial instinct, Predator versus Prey, passed down from a thousand generations of women who, like me, feared the inevitable. Weâd seen the footage of the hyena and the gazelle, and it always ended the same.
âSo beautiful,â he whispers.
I close my good eye. In my mind, the bathroom dissolves into a reddish hue, the corners dimming like the vignette of an old art house film. The metamorphosis begins at Poncho Manâs feet, his mismatched shoes bursting open at the toe, revealing short, sharp claws. His pants bulge at the knees and thighs, every pulsing muscle defined beneath the cheap fabric. His poncho stiffens, hardens, ripples into a spotted fur coat; matted and dirty, the blacks and oranges and browns of his mangy hide reflect the red light of the room, and behold! The metamorphosis of Poncho Man is complete, with one last addition: Fangs. First one, then another, sprouting forth like two young oaks in fertile soil.
âNothing will happen,â he says, his voice thick. âNothing you donât want.â
And in that tone, I understandâI
know
âIâm not his first. âFuck you. Move.â
He reaches out, grips my arm just above the elbow. Itâs firm and painful. âWhy would you say that to me?â
Scream, Mary.
âYouâre too good,â he whispers, leaning his head closer. I can smell his breath, every ounce as ashy and deceitful as Iâd imagined. âI know you.â
A scream had been boiling in my stomach, and was about to take flight, until . . .
âI know your pain,â he said.
My pain
.
âIâd like to be friends, Mim.â
I am Mary Iris Malone, and I am not okay
.
âYou want to be friends, donât you?â
I am a collection