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doing your daily writing and your weekly body love, and keep coming back to these exercises. Weâll get there together.
In this chapter, weâre going to go a little deeper into some of the forces that may have shaped the way you think about your own sexuality, and othersâ as well. Specifically, weâre going to explore group identities and the sexual assumptions that are attached to them. And then weâre going to see if we might want to detach âem a little.
Itâs useful, too, to think about these issues not just in terms of how they affect you, but also in terms of how they might affect a current or future sexual partner. Not just because it will make you a better lover and friend, but because itâs sometimes easier to start by empathizing with a loved one, and then extend that same kind of empathy to ourselves. But before we do this, a reminder: Thereâs no way to ever be fully free of the lessons weâve learned at a deep level about sex, and that holds for the messages that come with your identities, too. You may embrace or even embody some of the stereotypes that are unfairly applied to you, and thatâs fine. Even if you act the exact opposite of how youâre expected to, youâre still behaving in some ways in response to how youâve been taught to act. And the social forces that keep these stereotypes in place are strongâas much as we wish it could be, itâs not possible to just erase them. The goal here isnât to wipe your slate clean, itâs to take a look at the ingredients that have brought you to where you are with your sexuality today and adjust the seasonings until you think youâre delicious.
AGE
Age is unlike most other group identities in that itâs always fundamentally changing for everyone. And yet your age can have a lot to do with how you feel about your sexuality, how other people view your sexuality, and how you view othersâ sexuality.
Letâs take the most obvious example: Most young women are expected to be innocent virgins. Thatâs not redundant, because just being a virgin isnât enough to live up to social expectations. To avoid judgment, young women shouldnât even be curious about or desirous of sex. Nowhere is this more apparent than in the ongoing debate about whether or not insurance companies should cover a vaccine for HPV (human papillomavirus), an STD that sometimes causes cervical cancer. The vaccine is quite effective when given to girls before they become sexually active, and thatâs just what gets some folks upset: They fear that even talking about STD prevention in the process of giving a girl a shot will turn her into a sex-crazed maniac. Theyâd prefer that girls grow up with a greater risk of dying from cervical cancer than to suggest in any way that it might be okay for girls to have a thought related to sex. 1
The folks who push the message that girls shouldnât be thinking about sex say itâs about teaching girls to value themselves, but if theyâd rather girls die of cancer than be sexual, that doesnât really value girls much, does it? What it really teaches is that the most important part of a girlâs character is what she does or doesnât want to do with her bodyânot how good a friend she is, how hard she works in school, how honest she is, or anything else.
What does this mean for you? Well, for one thing, if youâre a young woman, it means extra pressure to not even think about being sexual. It means that if you do think about or act on your sexuality in any way, you may feel afraid to talk with anyone about it, which is isolating and can be dangerous.
In fact, the pressure on younger women to be âgoodâ (that is, not sexual) can be so great that it isolates us not only from older adults, but also from other young women. Eugenia, seventeen, had promised to tell her best friend when she had sex with her boyfriend for