Free Broken by Ella Col Page A

yours.”
                  He reaches above me and grabs a condom from the nightstand. I close my eyes with anticipation. First, I hear the tear of the wrapper. Then, I hear Levi fumbling to get the condom on quickly. He’s settled in between my legs. I don’t know whether to raise them or keep them where they are. So, I decide to just leave them be. Gently, Levi pushes them apart and I feel his penis nudge at my opening. The nudges continue until a small portion is in me. It’s uncomfortable but not painful.
                  More of Levi slips into me. The discomfort becomes more dominant. Although he’s only a quarter of the way in, I begin to feel a burning stretch. My eyes begin to tear. “Are you okay?”
                  I lie because I know he will stop if I say no. “Yeah.”
                  Levi pushes more and I can feel that he hit a barrier. From the look on his face, I know that he feels it too. “Lena, I’m going to have to push through this. Just breathe.” I give him the go ahead and wait to be broken.
                  Levi pushes and a searing pain shoots from below up to my stomach. I feel a wetness leak from me. Levi is fully in me now but doesn’t move. “I’m going to move now, Lena. I have to move.” I nod my head in agreement.
                  I know he has to move and I know in order for this to get better I have to struggle through this. He begins to thrust at a frequent pace. The feeling is not as painful as it was in the beginning. Levi is breathing heavy above me and I see him bite down on his lip. I like watching him react to what we are doing so I focus on that. Moving faster and faster, Levi gives two hard thrusts while groaning in to my neck, then stills.
                  Collapsing on top of me, Levi delivers sweet kisses all over my face and neck. I feel him pull himself from me. “Be honest. Are you really okay?”
                  Honestly, I feel strange. Of course, I’m sore. But, emotionally, I’m drained. I expected as much. I want to lie and tell Levi it was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. On the other hand, it wouldn’t be fair for me to do that. Truthfully, I have no regrets and Levi was the perfect person to take my virginity away, but it hurt like hell. “It hurt a little. I’m perfectly fine.”
                  “It gets better. I promise. I’m sorry I hurt you.” He looks a little sad.
                  I wrap my arms around him, bringing him as close as I can to me. “This whole experience has been perfect. I knew what to expect tonight. I’m really glad it was you and no one else.”
                  Smiling at my admission, he kisses my forehead. “I’m glad it was me too. Thank you for giving yourself to me.”
                  I’m not sure what to say, but, thankfully, Levi begins to clean up. He removes the condom and journeys to the bathroom. While he’s in there, I look around to see the damage. There’s a little blood on me and on the blanket beneath me. While he’s cleansing himself, I take the opportunity to do the same. Kaite made sure I brought wipes with me to clean up. I use the wipes and put Levi’s t-shirt on. I gather the blanket and fold it placing it with our bags.
                  Levi comes out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist. I can’t help but think he’s the guy who took my virginity. I feel a little off and I want to hide it from him. From behind, he wraps his arms around me. “We have the room for the night. Will you stay with me?”
                  “Of course.” I’m a little nervous that he expects more from me. I’m fine with trying it again but I don’t know if I can take much more than what we have done already.
                  He plucks a grape from the table where he spread the food out and pops it in his mouth.