child, a below-the-knee apron over a dress. Straw hats covered the boysâ heads and suspenders held up their trousers. They were giggling and jabbering in Deitsch. The scene was both comforting and off-putting, as if Estherâs feet were sliding into her favorite bedroom slippers and finding a pebble at the bottom.
As if she were awakening from amnesia, childhood memories mushroomed, coming to life in 3-D. When Esther was young she assumed sheâd remain in Lancaster County forever, but sheâd suffocated under the weight of Mamm and Datâs expectations. Like a slingshot, sheâd catapulted herself to the other side of the country and didnât belong here anymore.
CHAPTER NINE
âThey donât speak English yet,â Grandma Anna told me, describing the three preschool children trouping around me, chattering in Pennsylvania Dutch. âThese are Isaac and Gretaâs Kinner: Joe, Luke, and Sarah.â In their Amish outfits the two boys were hard to tell apart. No Mariner T-shirts or baseball caps here.
I caught snippets of what they said and was delighted they called me Aendi Holly.
Grandma Anna corrected them. âThey think youâre their aunt, but I told them youâre my granddaughter. So youâre their cousin.â
âI probably look the age of their parents.â I didnât care if they thought I was as ancient as Mount Rainier. The kids treated me like a celebrity. I wore jeans, blue flats, and a matching belt. And makeupâhad I applied too much mascara this morning? I felt over my head and out of place, and also thrilled to be in the spotlight.
Grandma Anna removed the boysâ straw hats and hung them on pegs at the back door. She turned to Mom, who stood watching us from afar. âThis is Esther Fisher, mei Dochder from Seattle. Esther is Hollyâs Mudder. â
The kids seemed to understand, because they smiled.
âHello, children.â Momâs eyesâI knew her every lookâtold me she was glad I was fitting in, but her shoulders and feet angled toward the front door like she couldnât wait to scram.
I had to ask myself again: Was Momâs memory failing? Unlikely. She ran the Amish Shoppe, rarely missing a beat when it came to checking in orders and recalling customersâ names. What was her problem?
I heard footsteps on the staircase leading to the second floor. A moment later, a woman wearing an eggplant-colored dress and black apron entered the kitchen cradling a baby. Grandma Anna introduced us to Momâs sister-in-lawâUncle Isaacâs wifeâGreta, her prayer cap veiling sandy-brown hair, her strings hanging loosely.
âGood ta meetcha,â Greta said. âThis hereâs three-month-old Lydia.â Greta stroked the babyâs rosy cheek. âOur older two Kinner are in school. Have ya met my husband, Isaac?â
âNot yet.â I figured Greta was my age. While admiring her baby girl, I noticed Gretaâs gaze analyzing me from head to foot. I reminded myself: My mother was the prodigal daughter, come back from sampling the wicked world and returning with nothing except me, a fancy Englischer, which is what Mom told me Grandma Anna labeled anyone who was non-Amish.
âMy sisters-in-law went to town to do the shoppinâ and will swing by in a couple hours,â Greta said, rocking Lydia. âIf theyâd known you were cominâ Iâm sure theyâd be here to greet ya.â
Grandma chuckled. âAch, even I didnât know they were cominâ.â
âI look forward to meeting them,â I said. âHow will I keep everybody in the family straight?â
âWe share the same last name as your grandmother Gingerich, since the women married her sons,â she said with a smile.
âYouâre right.â I tried to memorize Gretaâs round face and her fair complexion, and repeated her name in my head, a trick I used with our
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