Free Delphi Complete Works of Anton Chekhov (Illustrated) by ANTON CHEKHOV

but I was kept up by the thought that from day to day the old man might die, that then I would begin to live as I liked, to give myself to the man I adore -- be happy. There is such a man, Voldemar, indeed there is!”
    The pretty lady flutters her fan more violently. Her face takes a lachrymose expression. She goes on:
    “But at last the old man died. He left me something. I was free as a bird of the air. Now is the moment for me to be happy, isn’t it, Voldemar? Happiness comes tapping at my window, I had only to let it in -- but -- Voldemar, listen, I implore you! Now is the time for me to give myself to the man I love, to become the partner of his life, to help, to uphold his ideals, to be happy -- to find rest -- but -- how ignoble, repulsive, and senseless all our life is! How mean it all is, Voldemar. I am wretched, wretched, wretched! Again there is an obstacle in my path! Again I feel that my happiness is far, far away! Ah, what anguish! -- if only you knew what anguish!”
    “But what -- what stands in your way? I implore you tell me! What is it?”
    “Another old general, very well off----”
    The broken fan conceals the pretty little face. The author props on his fist his thought -- heavy brow and ponders with the air of a master in psychology. The engine is whistling and hissing while the window curtains flush red with the glow of the setting sun.
     
     
    NOTES
     
    suffering soul in some page of Dostoevsky: one of Fyodor M. Dostoyevsky’s (1821-1881) major themes was the beneficial effects of suffering
    vous comprenez? : do you understand?
    Do you remember Raskolnikov and his kiss?: In Crime and Punishment Raskolnikov is told to “go to the cross roads, bow down to the people, kiss the earth, for you have sinned against it too, and say aloud to the whole world, ‘I am a murderer.’ “

A CLASSICAL STUDENT
     
     
    Translated by Constance Garnett 1882-1885
     
     
     
     
    BEFORE setting off for his examination in Greek, Vanya kissed all the holy images. His stomach felt as though it were upside down; there was a chill at his heart, while the heart itself throbbed and stood still with terror before the unknown. What would he get that day? A three or a two? Six times he went to his mother for her blessing, and, as he went out, asked his aunt to pray for him. On the way to school he gave a beggar two kopecks, in the hope that those two kopecks would atone for his ignorance, and that, please God, he would not get the numerals with those awful forties and eighties.
    He came back from the high school late, between four and five. He came in, and noiselessly lay down on his bed. His thin face was pale. There were dark rings round his red eyes.
    “Well, how did you get on? How were you marked?” asked his mother, going to his bedside.
    Vanya blinked, twisted his mouth, and burst into tears. His mother turned pale, let her mouth fall open, and clasped her hands. The breeches she was mending dropped out of her hands.
    “What are you crying for? You’ve failed, then?” she asked.
    “I am plucked.... I got a two.”
    “I knew it would be so! I had a presentiment of it,” said his mother. “Merciful God! How is it you have not passed? What is the reason of it? What subject have you failed in?”
    “In Greek.... Mother, I... They asked me the future of phero, and I... instead of saying oisomai said opsomai. Then... then there isn’t an accent, if the last syllable is long, and I... I got flustered.... I forgot that the alpha was long in it.... I went and put in the accent. Then Artaxerxov told me to give the list of the enclitic particles.... I did, and I accidentally mixed in a pronoun... and made a mistake... and so he gave me a two.... I am a miserable person.... I was working all night. . . I’ve been getting up at four o’clock all this week... .”
    “No, it’s not you but I who am miserable, you wretched boy! It’s I that am miserable! You’ve worn me to a threadpaper, you Herod, you torment,