too, sir, but ⦠I sort of expected to hear from you before this. Before the turnover, I mean.â
âYou expected to hear what from me?â
âAbout what you mentioned when I relieved.â
The CSO smiled politely. âSorry, Iâm not certain what weâre talking about.â
Dan struggled to keep his tone level. âI was under the impressionâwhat you said to me, just before you left that first day. At the brow, on your way over the side. You said to get her in shape; we might need her. Or words to that effect. I took that to mean that in view of what was happening in Kuwait, there was some consideration going on of retaining her on the active list.â
Munro looked over his shoulder, obviously not riveted by the conversation. âRetaining her? No, I never heard anything along those lines. I may have said something encouraging, but I donât think I said that. Excuse me a minute, OK? Talk to you later.â
Dan stood still, seething with disappointment and anger. Cursing himself for being credulous and overbearing, for having sacrificed his own work and his crewâs arrangements on the basis of a misunderstood phrase.
But, goddamn it, that was what Munro had said. It wasnât possible heâd misunderstood or misheard.
Foley walked by, beer in hand, giving him a respectful nod. Dan forced a smile, fighting for calm. He knew why heâd done it, of course. For Gaddis , for a ship that for one bright moment heâd thought of as his, hoping against hope he could save her, almost singlehanded.
Instead his destiny was a pookah in Norfolk, checking the message traffic every day to see whether heâd been promoted. If he wasnât, heâd have to retire.
All heâd ever wanted was to be allowed to do what theyâd trained him for. Could it really be that acting CO of Gaddis would be the closest heâd ever get to having his own ship?
He stared at the wall with unseeing eyes, then gathered the saliva in his mouth and spat the cloying taste of too-sweet cake into his paper napkin.
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HE was heading for the exit, making his bird, when he saw Beard and Admiral Sapp vectoring to intercept. He forced another smile. âHow you doing, sir? Good to have you with us.â
âA well-run ceremony,â said Sapp. âA good-looking ship. I had seen her before, when Dan Ottero had her. Youâve done a job, turning her around.â
Dan wondered about the slip, calling Ottero âDanâ instead of âDick.â But instead of correcting the admiral he just said, âThank you, sir.â
âDid you get to speak to the general?â
âYessir, had a few words with him. Nice of him to come down.â
âSometimes the ambassador makes it. Busy now, I expect, because of their government shakeup.⦠I was impressed with how quickly you got Gaddis out of the yard. Evilia didnât think sheâd be ready before spring. Howâd you get them turned to so fast?â
âSome size-ten leadership, Iâm afraid. The shipyard commanderâs not happy with me.â
âDonât worry about him. The staff corpsâs there to support the fleet.â Sapp cleared his throat and looked around. âIâve been getting your turnover status reports. Apparently you have doubts as to their conning and navigation readiness.â
âYessir. They donât strike me as fully trained in those areas yet.â
âHow about fireroom and engineroom manning? Are they safe to sail?â
This was a complex issue wrapped in a code phrase. âSafe to sailâ had several meanings, from material condition, to crew size, to the potential legal issue of whether someone could be held liable for ordering an unready ship to sea. Dan took a deep breath. âSir, if you want it laid on the line here, the short answerâs no. The CO was on deck for the sea trials. I went below for a few