Free Scarred Beautiful by Beth Michele

realizing it.

 
     
     
    Is she for real? First she tells me that she likes it when I laugh, well, not in those words, but it was pretty clear. Then she taunts me and I find myself coming back for more. What the hell? The fucked up part. I liked it. All of it. I like the way I feel around her, the adrenaline surge that kicks in, the way she challenges me, almost to the point of not caring what I think about her. That is so damn attractive and she has absolutely no idea.
    I’ve always been the pragmatic one, ever since I can remember. I’m not sure if it’s from being the oldest of three children, or if it’s something that was ingrained in my personality since birth. But I do know this—it’s been nearly a day and all of my rational thought has gone right out the fucking window. Nothing makes sense when I’m around her and I find myself in a constant state of confusion. She throws me off my game and I can’t figure out if I like the feeling or not. Well, I think I do. It’s just that I’m used to being in control and having my shit together, yet one snarky comment from her and I’m sent into a tailspin.
    I’ve always loved a good challenge. Ever since I was a kid, if you told me there was something I couldn’t do, I’d work three times as hard to prove that I could. When I was eleven and Mom told me that if I ate one more peanut butter and jelly sandwich, bringing my count to four, that I’d end up getting sick—I mentally talked myself out of throwing up the entire night. I even snuck a couple glasses of ginger ale when she wasn’t looking, just so I could show her she was wrong.
    When we went out on my parents’ small boat on Greenwich Beach as kids to go water-skiing and my friends said anyone who didn’t do it was a scaredy-cat, I was terrified, but never let on that it scared me to death. Instead, I went ahead and did it so everyone could see how brave I was…and then I ended up breaking my leg. But hey, they couldn’t call me chickenshit.
    So when Fran looks at me with those dazzling green eyes and dares me, she has absolutely no idea what she’s in for, because that’s the one word in my vocabulary that gets my juices flowing, and she’s about to discover just how much.
    “You wouldn’t dare,” she says, mashing her lips together, forming an adorable smirk.
    “Oh, I would dare, Fran. Ask Caleb. He’ll tell you how I respond to dares….”
    When Caleb dared me to eat a worm in third grade—I ate two. When he dared me to see if I could get to second base with Nancy Trimbell—I got to third. When he dared me to moon a car full of girls on the highway for one minute—I kept my ass up there for five. So this, well, this is cake.
    I catch Fran by surprise and hoist her in the air. She tries to fight me, kicking her legs and attempting to wiggle out of my grasp, but I just tighten my hold.
    “Put me down,” she yells, half laughing and half screaming while attempting to call Peyton for backup, but she’s way too busy locking lips with Caleb to come to Fran’s rescue.
    When her eyes come back up to meet mine, I can feel that energy pulsating between us. Although my attention flickers to her lips, a dark pink from the sun, the cool breeze has made her nipples taut against the thin fabric of her tank, and my breathing accelerates. It’s impossible not to appreciate every single detail about Fran; she’s unbelievably gorgeous.
    My gaze is drawn back to her lips when her tongue darts out to moisten them, making me want to taste her, to kiss her, to go exploring. What the hell am I saying? I’ve known this girl for barely twenty-four hours and yet I feel like I’ve known her for years.
    I finally lower her to the ground, because if I don’t, I’m not sure I’ll be able to control myself much longer. As if that isn’t bad enough, then the words start spilling out about my sister. I don’t know what possessed me to say them. I’m usually very tight-lipped about my mother and sister’s