to disperse the eternal darkness. I had been brought out of bed, still clad in my nightdress, and was backed into the windowless inner corner of Fatherâs cabinet. Every drawer was opened in his desk, the books lay in heaps on the floor, having been methodically searched for scraps of paper between the leaves. A little coffer lay overturned and empty on one of the bookshelves. My uncle was tapping the panels and the furniture for any hollow sound that might reveal a hidden compartment. Before me was my mother, my brother standing behind her. They looked grimly conspiratorial.
âWhere what is?â
âDonât play the innocent.â Motherâs voice was hard. âYou know where the foreign account is. The money he hid from Colbert and the King. He told you where the treasure was before he died. I heard him whispering to you: He said âtreasure.â Donât think you can hide my sonâs inheritance to your advantage. Tell it now, or I assure you, you will not live to enjoy it.â
âHe never told me anything of the sort. Thereâs no such thing.â
âMy brother, she is obstinate, as I predicted.â Uncle turned from his work of vandalizing Fatherâs library and fixed his narrow, calculating little eyes on me.
âI have your permission, Monsieur?â He turned to my brother, the new head of the house of Pasquier. Grown stolid and old with his new elevation, my brother nodded formally. It was then I saw my uncle pick up the long ash rod.
***
The next few days were spent in the company of the mice in the locked tower room. They sent Marie-Angélique to whisper through the door, âGeneviève, Sister, weâve always been friends, havenât we? Just tell them, and everything will be all right again.â But I could hear Uncleâs heavy boots on the stair behind her.
âSister, there isnât anything. Father told me heâd left me with the treasure of philosophy.â
âOh, Sister, then thereâs no hope,â I heard her answer, sobbing.
Then one evening, when I had lost track of time, the door swung open. My uncle stood stooped over in the low door, his walking stick under his arm, a candle in his uplifted hand. His shirt was hanging open out of his unbuttoned doublet. His breath was heavy with wine. His eyes glowed with menace.
âTell me,â he said, in a heavy, intimate tone. âYouâre wise to keep it to yourself. What has your mother ever done for you? Itâs meâIâm your friend.â No oneâs friend, I thought, repelled by him. âDear little niece, how will you get it if you have no man to travel for you? Share it with me, and it will only be divided two ways.â He set down the candle and moved toward me. I backed away into the corner. He pressed me against the wall and began to paw at my breasts. I couldnât escape the disgusting smell of his breath. âTell me, tell me. Weâll share the fortune, we two.â Oh my God, I thought. He thinks that lovemaking will make me tell. I was horrified. âCome now,â he said. âYou know you want this. All women do.â
âThereâs no secret, Uncle. There never was,â I said, trying to push him away, turning my face from his. âCanât you understand?â
âThere must be. There is! Youâre hiding it!â he cried, holding me tightly as he fumbled at my dress, as if I had somehow concealed the money in there.
âWhat are you doing?â I cried. âI have nothing. Canât you see?â
âThere must be a paper. You have a paper with the name of the banker,â he said, his voice slurred as he tried to force his hand into my dress.
âGet off. Thereâs nothing!â I shouted, as I tried to push his hands away.
âQuit hiding it, you little bitch! I have to have it!â He grabbed at my throat and tried to batter my head against the wall, but I hit him in