out that pretty face of yours and tell me what happened?â
âIâm never going back to school again.â
âDid you get into trouble?â
Another leg kick, but with less force, a sign of defeat.
Hannah pulls down the covers. Alicia claps her hands over her face.
âIt canât be that bad,â Hannah says.
Alicia keeps her hands over her eyes. âI donât want to talk to you.â
âSometimes when we feel embarrassed about something, the best thing we can do is talk. I promise youâll feel better when you get it out.â She leans in and kisses the top of Aliciaâs head.
âIt was Toriâs idea. She said if I didnât do it, sheâd tell everyone I copied her spelling test.â
âYou need to tell me what it was you did.â
âWe put on makeup.â
Hannah tugs Aliciaâs hands from her face. Glittery blue eyeshadow is smeared over her eyelids. âWhoa.â Hannah laughs.
âI hate you,â Alicia says.
âHoney, I didnât mean to laugh at you. I guess Iâm relieved. I thought it was something worse.â
âIt wasnât the makeup we got in trouble for,â Alicia mutters.
Hannah feels a twinge in her chest. âWhat was it, then?â
âI didnât want to do it. I told Tori we shouldnât.â
âShouldnât what?â
âIâm only telling Dad.â
âNo. You will tell your father when he gets home, but now you are going to tell me.â
âFine.â She pouts. âI said that Peter was gay.â
âWhy would you do that?â The twinge deepens to an ache.
âTori made me.â
âStop saying that someone else made you. If you said something like that to Peter, you need to own up to it. What anyone else said or told you to do doesnât matter.â
âPeter likes boys.â
âHe is allowed to like whomever he wants to without you saying anything. How would you like it if someone called you a name?â
Alicia glares. The blue shadow shimmers. âYou think youâre so perfect.â
âWeâre going over to Peterâs house as soon as you wash off that makeup, and you will apologize.â
âYou make everything worse. I knew you would. Itâs not better to say something.â
Hannah stands. âGet out of bed and wash your face. Iâm calling Peterâs mother.â
Alicia stomps out of the room. Sam is in the doorway, tears in his brown eyes. Hannah scoops him into her arms and kisses him.
âWhatâs the matter?â she asks.
âNo one is nice anymore.â
âHey, little man.â She tugs at his nose. âHow about after we stop at Peterâs house, I take you to the bookstore?â
He dives his head into her shoulder for a hug.
At five-thirty, they return from the bookstore. Alicia had begrudgingly told Peter she was sorry and that she didnât mean to hurt his feelings. She managed to slip in that Tori did it too, which made Hannah furious. A terse lecture on accountability followed. Of all the frightening, awful things Hannah has imagined happening to her children, she never thought that one of them would be a bully, especially Alicia, who has always been so sensitive.
Itâs nearly six, and Hannah is in her bedroom, getting ready for group. She picks out a gray cashmere turtleneck, then puts in a pair of gold hoops. With everything that happened today, there is no way sheâd be going to group if she hadnât promised Bridget.
Gabby, their babysitter, is due any minute. The one good thing about tonight is that Hannah will not have to see Adam. By the time she gets home, probably nineish, maybe later if Bridget needs her, he will be in the guest room. The rules are simple but firm. In the morning Hannah takes care of the children. After they leave, she goes to her studio. Adam cleans the kitchen, showers, and heads to work. They do not see each other.