In the evening, after they eat politely as a family, they split homework chores and story-reading duties. By nine, he is in the guest room, and she is in what used to be their bedroom. The only time they spend alone is during the car ride to couplesâ therapy. Hannah has debated taking her own car, but their therapist is on Newbury Street, and itâs difficult enough to find one parking spot, let alone two.
Her phone, which sits on her long mahogany dresser, vibrates. Itâs too early for Adam to be texting. She hurries across the room, guessing itâs Bridget.
Am almost home. Donât worry about getting a sitter. A
Goddammit. Sheâs already made the plans. What does he not understand about needing to stick to the schedule? She types furiously.
Gabby is on her way. You werenât supposed to be here until seven.
She wants to tell him not to come home until then, but the thought that heâll have over an hour of free time frightens her. She presses send.
Iâll still pay Gabby.
Thatâs not the point.
Wanted to spend time with kids. Knew you had group.
She whips the phone onto the bed.
âMumma,â Sam shouts as he races into her room. âGabby is here.â
Gabby is in the kitchen, handing Alicia a headband. Sam bounces as he waits for his surprise. Itâs a kidâs place mat from a restaurant. His eyes light up.
âAdam is coming home earlier than expected,â Hannah says.
âCan Gabby still stay?â Alicia asks.
âShe can. But she certainly doesnât have to. Either way, weâll pay you.â
âItâs fine, Mrs. Jenkins. I canât take money for not working. Really.â
Hannah takes a twenty from her wallet anyway just as Adam walks in through the back door.
âDad, we want Gabby,â Sam says.
Adamâs laugh is gentle, and as he stands smiling at his son, Hannah feels a familiar draw. After everything thatâs happened, heâs still the man sheâs attracted to.
âIâll come again soon.â Gabby zips up her blue parka.
âCan I watch TV?â Alicia asks Adam.
âItâs up to your mother,â he tells her.
âNo. Not tonight. You need to wait in your room and then tell your father what happened.â
With red cheeks, Alicia runs off to her room and slams the door.
Gabby lets herself out. Sam scampers off to the den, and Hannah is left in the kitchen, holding a twenty-dollar bill.
âWhat happened?â Adam asks.
âSheâll tell you.â
âWas it so bad that you had to embarrass her that way in front of Gabby?â
âYes, actually, I think it was that bad. But itâs better Alicia tell you. And I also donât appreciate your changing the schedule.â She grabs her purse from the counter and a scarf from the rack next to the back door.
âHave fun,â he tells her.
Really? Have fun?
She glances over her shoulder at him. âGo fuck yourself,â she says, and walks out.
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SESSION TWO
Kathrynâs door is open. Hannah pokes her head in and sees that once again she is the first to arrive.
âHannah.â Kathryn swivels around and stands. âIâm so pleased you decided to return.â
Hannah sits on the same hard wooden chair and looks through her purse for her phone. Damn. She left it at home on the kitchen counter.
A few minutes later, Lizzy walks in. She takes her corner of the couch and pins up a loose curl.
âIâm so glad youâre here,â she says to Hannah. Her smile is honest.
âThanks.â Hannah glances away, feeling guilty that this is going to be her last group and that she only came for Bridget.
Flavia, wearing a scoop-neck sweater that complements her long neck, strolls past and also sits on the couch, same as last week. Kathryn folds her hands on her lap.
Lizzy smiles broadly, warmly, and Hannah wonders again why men married to these women would ever jeopardize their
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