relationships. Because thatâs kind of what it comes down to, isnât it? If youâre concerned about me, it will distract you from saving other people.â
Vincentâs face grew dark. âYou mean more to me than anyone else, and I will not apologize for that.â
I felt chilled, but not from the winter air. âAre you saying that my life is more valuable than other peopleâs? That, say, my one life is worth a couple you could have saved if you hadnât been worrying about me? Because, honestly, that would be pretty hard to live with.â
Vincent took my hand back. âKate, how long is a human life?â
âI donât know . . . eighty to ninety years, maybe?â
âAnd you are seventeen. This is horrible to say, but . . .â
His meaning dawned on me slowly. âI only have another sixty or something years to live. Tops. So you only have to hold out for that long.â
His silence was as good as a yes. âDuring those years, the chances of a human dying because I donât will be slim to none. I always walk with my kindred, and if thereâs ever a life-or-death situation, they can be the ones to make the sacrifice.
âFrom my point of view, the time you and I have together is short. After that . . . I can spend the rest of eternity making up for lost lifesaving time, if thatâs how you want to think about it.â
We sat in silence, the images called up by his words too disturbing for me to talk about out loud.
âOkay,â I said finally. âEven so, Vincent, weâre still left with the fact that youâre going to spend the rest of my mortal life suffering. Iâm sorry, but that doesnât sound like a cake-and-ice-cream lifetime to me. To be honest, it makes me want to call off our agreement.â
His eyes opened wide. âNo.â
âI donât like to think about you going against your nature for me. I donât want to watch you suffer. Your dying for peopleâlike youâre supposed toâis the easiest solution to this whole mess. And Iâm strong, Vincent. I think I can take it.â The quaver in my voice gave me away.
A look of determination replaced his astonishment. He scooted closer and wrapped his arms around me. âKate, knowing you, just thinking of my deaths will make you pull back from me. So please donât give up on this plan yet. Not before you give me the chance to figure things out. Iâm working on a solution. A way to make it all work. Give me time.â
As he held me, the last remaining threads of my resolve snapped. I shrugged, feeling powerless. âVincent, if you think you can come up with something that will solve all our problems, then for Godâs sake, do it. Iâm just saying Iâm releasing you from your promise, not that Iâm leaving you.â
âIâm afraid you will leave meâfor totally understandable self-preservation purposesâif you think Iâm going to die,â Vincent insisted. âSo I wonât. Our agreement is still on. Okay?â
I nodded, feeling awash in a sense of relief while at the same time kicking myself for it. âOkay.â
Pulling back to see my face, he smiled ruefully and fingered a strand of hair that had fallen across my face. âKate, I admit that we arenât in the easiest of situations. But are you always this . . . complicated?â
I opened my mouth to say something, but Vincent shook his head, grinning. âActually, donât answer that. Of course you are. I wouldnât be so totally into you if you werenât.â
I laughed. And just like that, the force field of fear and worry dematerialized and I was kissing him. And he was kissing me. And as we touched, everything suddenly seemed very simple. It was just Vincent and me, and the world and all its complicated problems lost their importance. I pulled him closer to