Free Illusion by Ashley Beale

today at lunch. He asked me on a date for Thursday. I told him all about Kirt and everything I've been through, and he was supportive and sweet. I'm scared Emi. SO SCARED. What do I do?!?! Ahhhh!!!
                                Zoey LaRoche
     
                  It takes several minutes before I get a response from her. I was getting more and more nervous with each minute that passed, so I'm thankful when I get the notification of a new email. I nearly gasp when I see how long her response is.
     
                  To : [email protected]
                  Subject : RE: HELP!
                  Ohhhh Zoey, my older yet babyier sister! (Yes, I know, not a real word- screw it!) When it comes to me, you should know better to ask for both loving AND honest- but I will certainly do my best. Okay, so the way I see it (this is the HONEST portion, btw) is that you've opened up to him which is the hardest part of it all. Am I right? I am, I know it. Anyways, you already did that and he isn't running away. That should tell you something. I know that has been one of your many fears. Of course kissing him is just as big of a deal when it comes to you and everything you've been through. You liked it? GOOD! Continue kissing. Further it. Remember what I said... passion before love... bow chicka wow wow. ;)
                  I'm very happy for you (yup, this is the loving portion). You not only deserve this but you *need* this. Don't be afraid of the future and the potential heart break and all that yadda yadda. Live each day, embrace it, enjoy it. Have faith it'll all work out, okay love? What's meant to be will always find a way, or whatever that saying is.
                  I do not believe you're moving "too fast" as you put it. Yes, it's a bit faster than some people, but not nearly as fast as others. Think about all those people out there that have s** the first time they meet someone. (Bleeped out because I don't wanna get you in trouble- "hi Zoey's boss!!!" -but you get the idea of what I'm saying). I think you're moving at a safe speed. In fact, I was just encouraging you YESTERDAY to boink him. Did you?!?!! ;) Please say yes!
                  Jk, jk, I know you didn't. Regardless, don't think too much on it. Go with the flow. I'm here if you need me doll face. LOVE YOU. See you in ahhh.. two weeks and four days! Boo yeah.
                                *MWAH* Emi.
     
                  I hate when she is so right. I love it too, though. Here is yet another internal debate with myself. I need to stop doing this. I need to stop being so damn confused about everything in my life. I quickly respond, not wanting to further this conversation right now, while at work. I got what I was looking for, just a little push in the right direction and some 'motherly' sister advice.
     
                  To : [email protected]
                  Subject : RE: RE: HELP!
                  Can I just tell you that I love you. Even if you're insanely crazy. And it isn't my boss that reads these, it's the IT guy. He probably is shaking his head thinking my sister is a total s**t. ;-* Jk.. kinda.
                  Thank you though, seriously. I'd be so lost without you. You already know that though. I cannot wait til you're here in... two weeks and four days..! Even if that means the dang club. Boo. I need to get back to work though. I'll call you later.
                                              Zoey LaRoche
     
                  I finish the rest of my work, clock out, and leave.
                  Thursday comes before I know it and I find myself oddly nervous. More nervous than I expected. I saw Harvey on Monday and yesterday at lunch, and we talked on the phone for three hours last night, yet here I am