the way he did. And why she didnât come with us.â
âI canât comment on what went on between your parents, Van. If there are things you need to know, you should hear them from Loretta.â
âI donât know what to say to her. I donât know what to ask.â She turned away again. âIn all those years, my father never said a thing about it.â
That didnât surprise him, but he doubted Juliusâs motives had been altruistic. âWhat else did she tell you?â
âWhat else is there to tell?â Vanessa countered.
Brady was silent for a moment. âDid you ask her why?â
âI didnât have to.â She rubbed a chill from her arms. âShetold me she didnât even love the man. It was just physical. Just sex.â
He contemplated his beer. âWell, I guess we should drag her out in the street and shoot her.â
âItâs not a joke,â Vanessa said, whirling around. âShe deceived her husband. She cheated on him while they were living together, while she was pretending to be part of a family.â
âThatâs all true. Considering the kind of woman Loretta is, it seems to me she must have had some very strong reasons.â His eyes stayed on hers, calm and searching. âIâm surprised it didnât occur to you.â
âHow can you justify adultery?â
âIâm not. But there are very few situations that are simple black and white. I think once you get over the shock and the anger, youâll ask her about those gray areas.â
âHow would you feel if it was one of your parents?â
âLousy.â He set the beer aside. âWant a hug?â
She felt the tears rise to burn the backs of her eyes. âYes,â she managed, and went gratefully into his arms.
He held her, his arms gentle, his hands easy as they stroked along her back. She needed him now, he thought. And the need was for friendship. However tangled his emotions were, he could never refuse her that. He brushed his lips over her hair, enchanted by the texture, the scent, the warm, deep color. Her arms were tight around him. Her head was nestled just beneath his.
She still fitted, he thought. She was still a perfect fit.
He seemed so solid. She wondered how such a reckless boy could have become such a solid, dependable man. He was giving her, without her even having asked, exactly what she needed. Nothing more, nothing less.
Her eyes closed, she thought how easy, how terrifyingly easy, it would be to fall in love with him all over again.
âFeeling any better?â
She didnât know about better, but she was definitely feeling. The hypnotic stroke of his hands up and down her spine, the steady rhythm of his heart against hers.
She lifted her head, just enough to see his eyes. There was understanding in them, and a strength that had developed during the time she had been without him.
âI canât make up my mind whether youâve changed or whether youâre the same.â
âSome of both.â Her scent was waltzing through his system. âIâm glad you came back.â
âI didnât mean to.â She sighed again. âI wasnât going to get near you again. When I was here before, I was angry because you made me rememberâand what I remembered was that Iâd never really forgotten.â
If she looked at him that way five more seconds, he knew, heâd forget sheâd come looking for a friend. âVanâ¦you should probably try to straighten this out with your mother. Why donât I drive you home?â
âI donât want to go home tonight.â Her words echoed in her head. She had to press her lips tightly together before she could form the next words. âLet me stay here with you.â
The somewhat pleasant ache that had coursed through him as heâd held her turned sharp and deadly. With his movements slow and deliberate, he put