reason she was so appealing to him. But he didnât want to have to remind her not to care about him.
He wanted her to care.
He wanted her to think about him all the time and when they were apart he wanted her to try to get back to him. And he knew that wasnât fair.
âIâm not playing with you, Jen,â he said at last.
âI never thought you were. For me this was a crazy dare. Something that I probably wouldnât have done at any other time, but for you, this is your life. A different woman every night and a lot of fun. I have to remember that weâre essentially two very different people,â she said, pushing her sunglasses up on her head.
He saw fear and caution in her gaze and he knew that she was being as honest with him as she could be. She wanted to be sure she didnât get hurt, and he didnât want her to be hurt.
âI would never do anything to hurt you,â he said.
âNot intentionally,â she said. She slid out of thepadded bench until she stood on the deck. âGive me the tour of this floating luxury craft. I want to be able to tell my nephew all about it.â
He let her change the subject because there was nothing more he could say to change her mind. He knew heâd simply have to do whatever it took to make sure she knew how important she was to him. He wasnât about to let her waltz out of his life easily.
âDoes Riley like the water?â
âHe loves it. Heâs an avid deep-sea fisherâ¦well, as avid as a seven-year-old can be. But he always talks about being out on the ocean. Marcia and I take him out on a fishing trip at least once a month,â she said.
âWhat has he caught?â
âHe got an eighty-pound, yellow-fin tuna the last time we went out. It took both Riley and the captain to bring that thing in. Want to see a picture?â
âYes, Iâd like that.â
She pulled out her cell phone and hit a few buttons. A minute later she turned the screen of the phone toward Nate and showed him a little boy standing next to a fish that was almost taller than him. The boy had thick dark hair and, he noticed, Jenâs eyes.
âHe looks so proud,â Nate said.
âHe was. Marcia had the fish preserved and mounted and itâs hanging over his bed now,â she said. âI donât think I have a picture of that in here.â
Nate put his arm around her and took the phone from her. âHow about a picture of you and me on the yacht so you can show him when you get home.â
âThat would be nice,â she said.
Nate wrapped his arm around her waist, and Jen put her head on his shoulder as he extended his arm out far enough to get both of them in the picture.
âSmile now,â he said, taking the picture. He looked at the screen and saw that the photo had turned out very nice.
He glanced down at her to make sure she was still smiling and she was looking up at him. âThings like this make me wish you were a different man.â
He had no reply to that. He knew what she wanted to hear from himâwords of commitment or at least a promise to move in that direction. But they were words he couldnât say. Heâd made a promise to himself a long time ago that heâd never marry. That heâd never settle down because his father had said that Stern men werenât the kind that took too well to marriage.
And Nate had believed that after his broken engagement. So heâd steered clear of women like Jen. Women who could make him feel more than just fleeting pleasure and a sense of fun.
But somehow sheâd snuck in, he thought. Last night sheâd been a pretty girl that he wanted. Today she was starting to grow on him. Starting to make him want to make promises he knew heâd never be able to keep.
âUmâ¦why donât you take some photos of the living quarters for Riley. Iâm going to check the radar and get us ready to head back to