âIâm just trying to hââ
âPlease, Neal, donât . . . canât we give Robbie some time toââ
âHey.â
They both stumbled to their feet and turned toward the voice behind them.
Robbie filled the gap in the sliders, shirtless above and shoeless below the fatigues that clung to his hips.
âWhoa, Neal. Towel.â He croaked out a laugh while Neal caught and resecured the towel around his waist. Ruth knew she was blushing, and knowing it made her cheeks even hotter. She looked at Neal and knew she was scowling. Had he heard them talking about him?
âGeez. Kidding. Just kidding. Itâs your house.â Robbie did not look at her or at Neal when he said it. He drove his hands into his pockets and walked past Ruth to the rail. A dogâs bark, the laugh of a couple of surfers floated up from the base of the cliffs.
âBig change from the old place.â
âYour motherâs a big wheel, you know,â Neal said. âSheâs got generals eating out of her hand.â
After theyâve taken their cut
, Ruth thought, amused by Nealâs attempt to impress Robbie with her accomplishments. Neal used his ex-military network to make money as a consultant. He brought Ruth lots of business and he got a piece of the pie. She caught Robbieâs eye and smiled.
âWay to go, Mom,â Robbie said.
For a few seconds, no one spoke.
âYou want some coffee, Rob, or is Coke still the drink of choice?â Neal cinched the towel tighter and grabbed his mug.
âCokeâd be good.â
âDone.â
Ruth joined Robbie at the rail, her shoulder nearly touching his. His head, still glistening with water from his shower, was razored nearly bald on each side; a small patch of black bristles did its best to cover the top. His jawline was still a surprise to her after four years, clean bones rising from what had once been a double chin. He was too thin, though. The circles under his eyes worried her.
âYou look exhausted, honey.â
âJust jet lag. Mind if I smoke up here?â He reached into his pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes.
âAs long as you donât do it in the house.â Ruth wanted the words back as soon as she said them. Still she was glad when he shoved the cigarettes back in his pocket.
He leaned forward on the railing. A tattoo appeared on his rib cage, just under his armpit. His name, followed by the letters
APOS
, a string of numbers,
USMC
,
No Religion
.
âWhatâs this?â
âLike dog tags, only permanent.â
âBut why?â
âLot of guys were getting âem. You get . . . sometimes dog tags disappear. Seemed like a good idea at the time.â
At first Ruth still didnât understand. Then she did. She grabbed his arm and pulled it to her the way she used to do when he was little and darting ahead of her near a busy street. More ink crawled up the underside of his forearm. A shield with the words
Semper Fidelis
. There were names: Hanny, Garcia, a couple of more she couldnât make out before Robbie pulled his arm back. Overhead, a flock of parrots shrieked. They swooped past in a blur of green.
âDamn, those guys are loud, huh?â Robbie watched the birds, descendants of escaped pets, now louder and more aggressive than the biggest crows. He rubbed the tattooed names, but now Ruth was looking at his hand. There was a tremor she hadnât noticed before.
She pretended to watch the parrots but wanted to pull Robbie to her and hold him until the tremor stopped. She settled for resting her palm against his shoulder, white where his T-shirt sleeve had shielded it from the sun. His shoulder stiffened under her palm. He breathed in through his teeth, the inward whistle he used to make when he was nervous. Ruth patted his shoulder and then let her hand drop. He glanced at her sideways.
âYou look good, Mom. Still working