Free Needing Him by Michelle Dare

occurred to me.  Why did he break up with me?  “If what you’re telling me is true, why did you leave me?”
    He began to speak, but at the same time I noticed a police cruiser had pulled up behind me.  What the hell?  An officer walked to my window as I was rolling it down.
    He was an older man, a little heavy set, and had a stern look on his face.  “Are you broken down, ma’am?  Do you need help?”
    “No, Officer.  I pulled off of the road to have a conversation.”  That would have been prime time to get the asshole out of my Jeep.  Although, he did just tell me what happened with Erin and I did believe him.  I stared at him the whole time he spoke and didn’t see him flinch or anything.  Maybe I should give him a chance to explain even if I really didn’t want to.
    “This isn’t the place for that.  You’re blocking a driveway,” he said nodding to the lane I was parked in front of.  I hadn’t even realized.  “You need to move along.”  The officer looked into my SUV, eyeing Radek.
    “Thank you, Officer.  We will.”  He nodded again and turned to go back to his cruiser.  I could hear Radek chuckling to my right.  “Shut up.  You have nothing to laugh about.”
    “You have to admit that was funny.  At least we weren’t in here having sex.”
    I turned toward him.  “If we were fucking that would mean that I had forgiven you, which I haven’t.  You have a hell of a lot more explaining to do, but apparently we now have to do it at my house.”
    Putting the Jeep in gear, I drove off to my home.  We stayed quiet for the remainder of the drive.  I parked in the driveway without opening the garage.  Radek was not getting into my home unless he had one amazing explanation as to why he broke it off with me.
    I shut off the ignition and turned to him.  “Explain.”
    “Can we go inside?”
    “Nope.”
    Taking a deep breath and letting it out he said, “When I went up to your house that day I didn’t know what or how I was going to handle things.  I knew I needed to break things off to buy me more time to figure out how to handle Erin.  Once we broke up she wouldn’t release what she knew about you.  I had a plan, I just had to set it into motion.”
    “You do know that you could have just told me the plan and I would have gone along with it, right?”
    “I know you would have, but what would have happened if we slipped up and got caught together before I was able to get to California?  I wasn’t going to take any chances.  I needed to protect you at all costs.”
    “By breaking my fucking heart?”  He was incredible.  Truly incredible.  We could have avoided the entire situation, but nooo.
    “I didn’t want to break your heart, but you have to understand that when I got to your door that day and saw Kai and Lee, you broke mine too.  Honestly, Kasi, what I saw was you having two men that you'd had sex with in the past over to your house while I was away.  One repeatedly.  Plus you came to the door pulling your shirt on.”
    “But…”
    “I know you said it was purely coincidence.  Why didn’t you call to tell me they were staying there?”
    “I thought you were working.”
    “You could have texted me or left me a voice mail.”
    “Yes, but they weren’t there long before you had gotten there.  You didn’t give me a chance to.”
    “It would have taken you thirty seconds to send me a text letting me know.  Nothing more.  Yet you didn’t.”
    He had me there.  I should have and didn’t.  I didn’t know what to say.  I made a mistake and knew it.
    “I was upset after seeing that,” he continued.  “That’s not including the way Kai looked at you, like he wished you were his.  I’m sorry, but from my view point it was all wrong.  It hurt me to think you wouldn’t tell me.  All kinds of scenarios were going through my head.  Were you sleeping with him again?  Did you not want me anymore?  Was I not good enough for you?  Maybe you