Free Broken by Christina Leigh Pritchard

 
Like Fizz
 
    Like fizz
    my emotions bubble up from my tummy
Making my heart pound
I am such a dummy
For my heart is about
    to be tossed to the ground
And I will have to stare down at it
Regretting my deepest feelings
And running after you I must quit
For if I do not
You’ll entrap me
And leave me in your web caught
Waiting to die
When you drain me of my blood
For what I feel is just a lie
That lingers in my mind
Since what I really want
I cannot seem to find
 
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Unable
 
One moment I want you
The next I’m just happy with what we have
I am not sure which feeling is true
Sometimes it is so intense
And I don’t know what to do
But then other days it is just comfortable
It doesn’t make any sense
There is a barrier
That is tall and dense
Blocking me from the truth
And once removed
It will be too late to know
What I really feel
And you will just go
While I stay behind
And continue searching
For what I am unable to find
 
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The Fact
 
    Don’t talk about the past
all I want to believe
    is already in my head
these feelings won’t last
and I’ll move on instead
never doubting how fast
history fades when certain of
the fact
    that there is no love
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Pleasure
 
     
    you claim I’ll never see pleasure
so this means in your heart I am not
how many times I measure
the things I feel
but deep inside I know,
I’ll never be able to deal
Without you
    please just go
So that I am not reminded
Everyday
That this is a lie
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Stop
 
    Stop messing with my emotions
You’re going to tear out my heart
And leave me screaming my confessions
Cause my motor you try to start
Then drift away
I get nervous and aroused
But you just continue to stay
Not ever knowing what it is you are doing
Stop messing with my head
Cause I can’t stop thinking about you
When I’m lying in bed
Thinking of all the things we could do
Stop messing with my mind
For if you do not
I will be left in an unfixable bind.
 
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Yo-Yo
 
    you come near
but leave without emotion
your motives are not clear
and my feelings drift further away through this ocean
cause I can’t wait till you know
what it is you want
so please decide before I go
cause my boat is almost lost in the sea
my oars already gone
Please explain to me
What it is you feel
    so that my electricity
    I may turn on
But till then
    I shall refrain from you
Cause if not,
    you’ll cause me much pain.
 
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Too Close
 
    you are getting too close to me
I can’t breathe right
You will leave eventually
And it will take all my might
To not run from you
Cause it hurts to know
That soon you’ll just go
And leave my heart out
Displayed for all to see
And the pain will make me shout
But no one will hear me
I can’t run from you
I should
I want to
But don’t think I could
You are my heart
And into misery I shall fall
Cause if I was smart
I never would’ve let you get this close at all.
 
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Song
 
    you wrote a song
made my heart melt
thought about it all night long
wishing I could tell you how I felt
but don't know myself
wouldn't matter anyway
so I'll leave my heart upon a shelf
and hope this feeling doesn't stay
twisting in my stomach knots
it hurts more than you'll ever know
cause I love you lots
but am certain you'd just
    go away
    if you knew
the things I really feel
but there isn't anything I can do
except hide from what is real
and keep my emotions bottled up
so that things will not change
and so my feelings won't erupt
and my life rearrange.
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    I saw you in a new light
your smile grabbed me
and now I must fight
to not lose it completely
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Shelf
 
    i ignore the feeling
and try hard to pretend it's nothing
probably it is for you
but I keep fighting
to keep it that way for myself
I don't want to feel the way I do
cause it is not wise
to put my heart upon