Free Eight Hundred Grapes by Laura Dave

said the thing that revealed to me what I should do. Ben said that was giving him too much credit. It never seemed to me that it was giving him enough.
    “Hey,” he said when I picked up the phone. He paused, not sure what to do now that he had me there. “Thanks for picking up.”
    I kept my eyes on the ceiling, on George’s face. I wasn’t going to make this easier. Maybe I was done making it harder, but that was different.
    “What are you doing?” he said.
    “Staring at Boy George.”
    He laughed. “That bad of a day?”
    “You have no idea.”
    He cleared his throat, asking me a question that encouraged me to answer him.
    “You want to tell me?” he said.
    “Yes.”
    “You going to?”
    I shook my head as though he could see that. “How would you describe Bobby and Margaret? Would you describe them as happy?”
    “Yes, I would.” He paused.
    “What?”
    “I would describe him as happier than her,” he said. “She seems a little lost.”
    That broke my heart for Bobby, for the reasons why Ben was correct, for the reasons it didn’t matter.
    “And my parents?”
    “That is more even. That is blessed,” he said. “I mean, next to you and Boy George, I’d say they are the happiest couple I know.”
    I laughed for the first time that day, some of my anger melting. Ben felt like Ben again, the two of us talking gently in a dark room, the world safer and more lovely for it.
    “You still need to take that poster down. It’s creepy. Milli Vanilli creepy.”
    “That’s not a battle you’re going to win, Ben.”
    Except that it was. I would have to remove everything from this room before this house was sold. The house. The vineyard. My childhood.
    “So I oversaw the move today,” Ben said. “Everything is on its way to London.”
    His accent crept up on me and warmed me to him.
    “I guess you heard that . . .”
    “I did,” I said. “Thomas called looking for you.”
    “He mentioned something about that,” he said.
    “Considering what’s going on between us, did you think that maybe you shouldn’t have sent my stuff to London?”
    “I did. I thought you might not want me to send your stuff anywhere without talking to you first. I thought that was the right thing to do. But I decided to move everything anyway.”
    “What would you call doing that?”
    “Hopeful.”
    I covered my eyes with my elbow. “Ben, I should get some sleep.”
    “I had them leave the guest room mattress. I’m sleeping on that. Though I forgot to tell them to leave sheets. So it’s a bit of a sad situation. Empty apartment. Old mattress. No pillow for my head.”
    “You could check into a hotel.”
    “That’s sadder.”
    He paused. We both did. The silence between us was exhausting.
    “I haven’t shown up there. I’ve tried to give you space. But you do need to talk to me.”
    “I’m listening.”
    He got quiet. “I was ready for you to argue. Now I’m not sure where to start.”
    “How about with Michelle Carter?”
    “I’ve told you about Michelle Carter.”
    What he’d told me was they had dated briefly the summer before we met—three months of briefly while she was filming a movie in New York. And that Michelle had crushed him. Eviscerated him. That was the word he used. Then she went back to London and got back together with her boyfriend. The famous actor—and often her romantic costar—Clay Michaels. The couple was tabloid fodder, glossy red carpet photos of them falling into the hands of girls at nail salons on a regular basis.
    Ben had never even been photographed with Michelle at an event. He liked to joke: If you weren’t photographed with a movie star you were dating, was it like it never happened?
    And so Michelle became an anecdote for Ben to share about his dating life. The time he dated one of the most famous women in the world. How she completely and totally disappeared on him. How else was that going to end? Ben laughed. The way we laugh about the people who slayed us, when