andtriestobiteitwithhergums.
HerworldisalientothehorrorsIknow.Allthechildseesislove.Herskinispaleandsoftagainst mine.She’smadeofcloudsandIofstone.Hereyeslargeandbrightlikehermother ’s.Herdemeanor and thin lips like Kieran’s. Were this another life, she might have been my child with Eo. My wife wouldhavelaughedtothinkitwouldbemybrotherandhersistertogetherintheendandnotus.We werealittlestormthatcouldn’tlast.ButmaybeDioandKieranwill.
—
Longafterthelightshavedimmedthroughoutthecomplextoeasetheburdensonthegenerators,Isit with my uncle and brother around the table in the back of the room, listening to Kieran tell me his newdutieslearningfromOrangeshowtoserviceripWingsandshuttles.Diowenttobedlongago,
butsheleftmethebaby,whonowsleepsinmyarms,shiftinghereandthereasherdreamstakeher wherevertheymay.
“It’sreallynotthatwretchedhere,”Kieranissaying.“Betterthanthestacksbelow.Wehavefood.
Watershowers.Nomoreflushes!There’salakeaboveus,theysay.Bloodydamndazzlingstuff,the showers.Childrenloveit.”Hewatcheshischildreninthelowlight.Twotoabed,shiftingquietlyas they sleep. “What’s hard is not knowing what’ll be for them. Will they ever mine? Work in the webbery?Ialwaysthoughttheywould.ThatIwaspassingsomethingdown,amission,acraft.You
hear?”Inod.“IguessIwantedmysonstobehelldivers.Likeyou.LikePa.But…”Heshrugs.
“There’s nothin’ to that now that you got eyes,” Uncle Narol says. “It’s a hollow life when you knowyou’rebeingsteppedon.”
“Aye,”Kieranreplies.“Diebythirty,sothosefolkcanlivetoahundred.Itain’tbloodydamnright.
I just want my children to have more than this, brother.” He stares at me intensely and I remember how my mother asked me what comes after revolution. What world are we making? It was what Mustangasked.SomethingEoneverconsidered.“Theyhavetohavemorethanthis.AndIloveAres
asmuchasanyone.Iowehimmylife.Thelivesofmychildren.But…”Heshakeshishead,wanting
tosaymorebutfeelingtheweightofNarol’seyesonhim.
“Goon,”Isay.
“Idon’tknowifheknowswhatcomesnext.That’swhyI’mgladyou’reback,littlebrother.Iknow you’vegotaplan.Iknowyoucansaveus.”
Hesaysitwithsomuchfaith,somuchtrust.
“Of course I’ve a plan,” I say, because I know it’s what he needs to hear. But as my brother contentedlyrefillshismug,myunclecatchesmyeyeandIknowheseesthroughthelieandweboth feelthedarknesspressingin.
It’s early morning as I sip coffee and eat a bowl of grain cereal my mother fetched me from the commissary.I’mnotyetreadyforcrowds.KieranandLeannahavealreadygonetowork,soIsitwith DioandMotherasthechildrendressforschool.It’sagoodsign.Youknowapeoplehavegivenup whentheystopteachingtheirchildren.Ifinishmycoffee.Motherpoursmemore.
“Youtookanentirepot?”Iask.
“Thechefinsisted.Triedtogivemetwo.”
Isipfromthecup.“It’salmostliketherealthing.”
“It is the real thing,” Dio says. “There’s this pirate who sends us hijacked goods. Coffee’s from Earth,Ithink.Jamaca,theysaid.”
Idon’tcorrecther.
“Oy!”avoicescreamsinthehallways.Mymotherjumpsatthesound.“Reaper!Reaper!Comeout
andplay-e-ay!”There’sacrashinthehallandthesoundofstompingboots.
“Remember,Deannatoldustoknock,” saysathunderousvoice.
“Youaresoannoying.Fine.”Apoliteknockcomesatthedoor.“Tidings!It’sUncleSevroandthe
ModeratelyFriendlyGiant.”
Mymothermotionstooneofmyexcitednieces.“Ella,douskind.”Elladartsforwardtoopenthe
door for Sevro. He bursts through, scooping her up. She shrieks with joy. He’s in his undersuit, a black sweat-wicking fabric that soldiers wear under pulse armor. Sweat rings stain the armpits. His eyes dance as he sees me, and he tosses Ella roughly onto a bed and charges toward me, arms outstretched. A weird laugh escapes his chest, hatchet face split with a jagged grin. His hair a dirty, sweat-soakedMohawk.
“Sevro,careful!”mymothersays.
“Reap!”Heslamsintome,spinningmychairsideways,clackingmyteethtogether,ashehalflifts me out of the chair,