the port .
I will not risk
fleeing with my children
on a rickety boat.
Would a navy ship
meet your approval?
As if the navy
would abandon its country?
There won’t be a South Vietnam
left to abandon.
You really believe
we can leave?
When the time comes,
this house
is our bridge
to the sea.
April 16
Should We?
Mother calls a family meeting.
Ông Xuân has sold
leaves of gold
to buy twelve airplane tickets.
Bà Nam has a van
ready to load
twenty-five relatives
toward the coast.
Mother asks us,
Should we leave our home?
Brother Quang says,
How can we scramble away
like rats,
without honor, without dignity,
when everyone must help
rebuild the country?
Brother Khôi says,
What if Father comes home
and finds his family gone?
Brother Vsays,
Yes, we must go.
Everyone knows he dreams
of touching the same ground
where Bruce Lee walked.
Mother twists her brows.
I’ve lived in the North.
At first, not much will happen,
then suddenly Quang
will be asked to leave college.
Hà will come home
chanting the slogans
of H Chí Minh,
and Khôi will be rewarded
for reporting to his teacher
everything we say in the house.
Her brows twist
so much
we hush.
April 17
Sssshhhhhhh
Brother Khôi shakes me
before dawn.
I follow him
to the back garden.
In his palm chirps
a downy yellow fuzz,
just hatched.
He presses his palm
against my squeal.
No matter what Mother decides,
we are not to leave .
I must protect my chick
and you your papayas.
He holds out his pinky
and stares
stares
stares
until I extend mine
and we hook.
April 18
Quiet Decision
Dinnertime
I help Mother
peel sweet potatoes
to stretch the rice.
I start to chop off
a potato’s end
as wide as
a thumbnail,
then decide
to slice off
only a sliver.
I am proud
of my ability
to save
until I see
tears
in Mother’s
deep eyes.
You deserve to grow up
where you don’t worry about
saving half a bite
of sweet potato.
April 19
Early Monsoon
We pretend
the monsoon
has come early.
In the distance
bombs
explode like thunder,
slashes
lighten the sky,
gunfire
falls like rain.
Distant
yet within ears,
within eyes.
Not that far away
after all.
April 20
The President Resigns
On TV President Thiu
looks sad and yellow;
what has happened to his tan?
His eyes brim with tears;
this time they look real.
I can no longer be your president
but I will never leave my people
or our country.
Mother lifts one brow,
what she does
when she thinks
I’m lying.
April 21
Watch Over Us
Uncle Sn returns
and tells us
to be ready to leave
any day.
Don’t tell anyone,
or all of Saigon
will storm the port.
Only navy families
can board the ships.
Uncle Sn and Father
graduated in the same navy class.
It was mere luck
that Uncle Sn
didn’t go on the mission
where Father was captured.
Mother pulls me close
and pats my head.
Father watches over us
even if he’s not here.
Mother tells me
she and Father have a pact.
If war should separate them,
they know to find each other
through Father’s ancestral home
in the North.
April 24
Crisscrossed Packs
Pedal, pedal
Mother’s feet
push the sewing machine.
The faster she pedals
the faster stitches appear
on heavy brown cloth.
Two rectangles
make a pack.
A long strip
makes a handle
to be strapped across
the wearer’s chest.
Hours later
the stitches appear
in slow motion,
the needle a worm
laying tiny eggs
that sink into brown cloth.
The tired worm
reproduces much more slowly
at the end of the day
than at the beginning
when Mother started
the first of five bags.
Brother Khôi says too loudly,
Make only three.
Mother goes
to a high shelf,
bringing back Father’s portrait.
Come with us
or we’ll all stay.
Think, my son;
your action will determine
our future.
Mother knows this son
cannot stand to hurt
anyone,
anything.
Look at Father.
Come with us
so Father
will be proud
you obeyed your mother
while he’s