of prostitutes,â I told her. âShe said I reminded her of one.â
âOh, great.â
âShe wanted to hear about my photography.â
âDid she invite any of the retarded people over, too?â Alice said. There was that old bitterness to her voice. In the past it hadnât bothered me, but now it did. She almost sounded jealous.
âDevelopmentally disabled, not retarded,â I said. âBut no.â
âWell, thatâs quite an invitation then.â
âShe probably just felt sorry for me,â I said. âMore than likely Iâll never hear from her again.â Only I would, I knew. I had written the date on my calendar the minute I got home, not that there was a chance Iâd forget it. Dinner at Vinnyâs with Swift and Ava, that Friday night. Now, here I was, lying.
âI thought we were supposed to get together yesterday,â Alice said.She didnât say more, but this was when I realized Iâd forgotten. Weâd planned to see the new Coen brothers movie.
âOh, no,â I said. âThings were crazy at work. Iâll call you to reschedule as soon as everything quiets down.â
âSure,â Alice said, but I knew from her tone she wasnât buying my excuse. My job was boring, but never crazy. âJust let me know when itâs a good time.â
But I didnât call her. And the next time Alice asked me to go to the movies with her, I said I was busy. Ava and Swift had invited me to have dinner with them at a different restaurant. Mediterranean, this time. The time after that, when Alice called to suggest we catch a movie together, I said no. The Havillands hadnât invited me anyplace, but I hoped they would. And that was enough.
âI guess youâre one of the popular girls now,â Alice said.
13.
âW e might want to do something about your wardrobe,â Ava said. It was a Saturday morning, and I had just shown up at Folger Lane to work on the photo project. Estella had already poured me a smoothie and set a carrot muffin on a plate for me, still warm from the oven. Swift was heading out to his qigong class. âDonât let her give you a hard time,â he called out to me. âI happen to like sweatpants.â
Even when she wasnât going anywhere, Ava always wore something interesting. That day it was a hand-painted silk blouse and a pair of linen pants with a silver necklace Iâd never seen before, and earrings to match.
âI just threw these on because they were handy,â I told her. I was wearing a faded T-shirt and stretched-out pants.
âIt doesnât matter if all youâre doing is passing appetizer trays, or even cleaning toilets,â Ava saidânot that she ever spent any time doing the latter. âIt just makes you feel better when youâve got a wonderful outfit on.â
âI guess I never think about clothes much anymore,â I told her. This wasnât completely accurate. I loved nice clothes. I just didnât own any.
âItâs about valuing yourself, Helen,â Ava said. âAnd letting the world know thatâs the kind of person you are.â
Despite the number of times Iâd been to their house, Iâd never been upstairs, but now she took me there in her special elevator. âItâs time you paid a visit to my closet,â she said.
Avaâs closet was the size of my whole apartment, more or less. One wall held the shoes. (Never mind that they never saw wear.) She must have owned a hundred pairs, which were arrangedâthanks to Estella, no doubtâby color, with a row of handmade cowboy boots lined up along the floor. Then there was the scarf and hat wall, and the purses. One whole rack held nothing but sweaters in every shade of cashmere but yellow. Ava hated yellow. Then there were the silk blouses, and the Indian tunics, and the floaty silk pants she favored because they concealed how thin her