legs were, and the long dresses. She owned more basic clothes, tooâthough of only the highest quality. This was the section she studied, for me.
âWe need to find you some good black pants,â she said. âThatâs a given. Black pants are a foundation of everything. You can build from there, but the pants are the starting point. Sort of like sexual attraction in a relationship. If you donât have that, it doesnât matter what other stuff you layer on top.â
She pulled a pair of crisp black linen trousers from a hanger and held them out to me. âWeâre about the same size,â she said. She pulled one of the cashmere sweaters off the rack thenâa shade of blue somewhere between a robinâs egg and the sky, and a scarf, mostly mauve and green, with a glittery blue thread running through it, unlike anything Iâd ever worn or ever imagined wearing. She picked out everything, even stockings. Then a skirtâblack leatherâand a pair of boots, also black, to go with it.
âI couldnât take this,â I told her, catching sight of the label and fingering the leather, the softest kid.
âOf course you can,â she said, almost impatient. âThis stuff is just hanging here. Iâd love to see you put it to use.â
There was more: a wrap dress (âa little conservative, but you might go on a date with some investment banker type somedayâ) and another dress on the totally opposite end of the spectrumâshort skirt, plunging neckline, draped to hug the body.
âOne thing about this one,â she said. âYou canât wear anything underneath it. Panty lines.â
I thought sheâd probably leave me to try the clothes on by myself then, but she sat there waiting.
âLetâs see,â she said.
I felt a little odd, but I pulled my T-shirt over my head.
âOh my god, your bra,â she said. âYouâre way more buxom than me, so I canât help you with that one. But we definitely need to pay a visit to Miss Elaine.â This turned out to be Avaâs lingerie consultant. A good bra fitter made all the difference, she told me.
I stepped out of my yoga pants.
âYou have a great butt,â she told me. âBut I knew that already. It was the first thing Swift said about you.â
I pulled the pants up and buttoned the waistband. As she had guessed, they were too long by a couple of inches, but otherwise the fit was perfect. Same with the cashmere top. I ran my hands over the sleeves, taking in the feel of the wool.
âThereâs nothing like cashmere against your skin,â Ava said. âWell, almost nothing.â
I stepped out in front of the mirror, arranging the scarf. âTry these,â she said, reaching into a drawer that turned out to contain earrings. She lifted out a pair of silver hoops and a cuff to go with them.
âAmazing,â she said, as she snapped the bracelet onto my wrist. âYou could almost be me.â I had never seen the slightest resemblance between us, but I actually knew what she meant. âMe, if I were fifteen years younger with fabulous tits.â
She laughed. A long, soft trill, like water over rocks. âAnd ambulatory,â she added.
14.
A t the time I met Ava, I had been spending timeâthough not a lot of itâwith a man named Jeff, a bank manager Iâd met on Match.com (moniker: âEZDuzItâ). He hadnât divorced his wife yet, so I knew this was going nowhere. But more than that he showed so little enthusiasm about meâand truthfully, I didnât possess all that much for him, either.
I told myself it was good to have the company, and that at least when he was around, I was less likely to do things like writing long letters to my ex-husband that I knew better than to send, or crying on the phone to Alice about missing my son, and about the court-ordered parenting classes I still had to attend twice a