mightâve laughed at the look on his face if everything didnât hurt so bad and if she werenât so freaked out by what had happened. That and the dream. Always the dream.
A strangled sob had forced itself out of her throat before she could stop it. She found herself pressed against him, though if sheâd reached for him or heâd pulled her close, she didnât know. What she did know was that his hand stroking her hair felt good, as did his arms around her. Even the pressure of his body on her aching bruises lessened the pain.
When he picked her up and carried her to the bed, she expected him to lay her down, but instead Jordan sat on the edge of it and held her on his lap. Monica was no small woman and had never been fond of being made to feel delicate, but something in the way he cradled her only made her bury her face against the side of his neck.
âHow did I get back here?â she asked against his skin.
Jordan hesitated before answering. âI found you. What the hell were you doing out there by yourself?â
She bristled at his tone, but when she tried to pull away, he held her close. âYouâre hurting me.â
âSorry.â He loosed his grip, but not enough to let her go. âYouâre going to be sore for a while.â
âNo shit,â Monica said. âSomething attacked me.â
âYou shouldnât have been out there alone,â Jordan said.
âI can take care of myself,â she snapped.
Jordan slid his hand to the back of her neck and buried his fingers in her hair, tipping her head back hard enough to make her gaspâand yes, it made her body ache, but that wasnât why. His eyes narrowed.
âObviously, you canât,â he said in a low voice.
Monica didnât try to struggle. Part of her knew he was right. Her role here had never been to hunt down the creature on her own, but to determine what it was so the Crew could come in and work together on it. Still, she pushed at his chest, though she couldnât get away from him.
âI was out walking, trying to think. Then I heard the peacocks screaming,â Monica said. âWhat did you expect me to do? Not try to see what it was?â
His mouth was very close to hers, though how it had happened, exactly, she couldnât say. He was going to kiss her, and yes, she was going to let him. Because that was what took away the pain and the fear, and because in his arms she could forget that sheâd gone up against something that mightâve killed her, and this time, despite how hard sheâd fought, she had not killed it. Something had saved her, and it had not been herself.
She couldnât think of it. And he wasnât kissing her, so she pulled his mouth down to hers. She gave him her tongue. At his soft groan, Monica pressed herself against him, writhing and ignoring the pain.
He pinned her wrists suddenly and held her away from him. âMonica. Donât. You donât really want this.â
âWant? Maybe not,â she said. â Need , Jordan.â
And she did need it. Needed to fuck away the memories and the pain and the fear, the anxiety. She shifted, twisting, to straddle him. He still held her wrists, keeping her from pushing against his chest, but that didnât stop her from grinding her crotch down on his.
âI donât want to hurt you,â Jordan said.
Monica slowed but didnât stop the steady rocking of her hips against his hardening cock. âI can handle it.â
She leaned to flick her tongue along his lower lip. He didnât release his grip on her wrists, but he did soften. Then he pulled her toward him. He kissed her, hard, until she gasped.
âIâll hurt you,â Jordan said into her ear, then slid his teeth along her throat.
His tongue stung the cut there, and she hissed. He gave a low growl and nipped her. Monica jerked, the pain so mingled with pleasure she couldnât be sure