selection.
âWeâve got pale pink, baby pink, orchid pink, champagne pink, pink lace, cherry blossom pink, lavender pink, cotton candy, hot pink.â¦â Mom lists the shades as she moves along the line, already eliminating the ones she doesnât like and tossing them back into the suitcase. The hot pinks, candy pinks, and lace are removed. The suggestive tops with the low fronts are taken away. We settle on baby pink: skinny cropped trousers and a blouse so light pink it is almost white, buttoned up the center with ruffles, and a pair of ballet flats. A walk across the cobblestoned courtyard in heels is too much of a stage set for a tripping/heel-getting-caught disaster. Not a good look for the cameras and the hysterical public, which will be there to watch me. The flats are pink-and-tan leopard print.
âTheyâre sweet, but they say âdonât mess with me,â too,â Mom says. âRemember, in this world, image is everything.â
Tina arrives with a male mannequin, then leaves.
âSweetheart, this is Mr. Berry,â Mom says. âHe will be representing your case. Judge Crevan recommended him, says heâs the best. He represented Jimmy Child.â
The mannequin suddenly moves. He offers me a big smile, a smile I donât believe, a smile that is as fake as the smooth skin on his face. From the neck down he looks sixty; from the chin up he looks thirty. He wears a dapper suitâlike heâs just walked out of the airbrushed pages of a magazineâshiny shoes, a handkerchief perfectly positioned in his pocket, and gold cuff links to match his gold tie. His face shimmers where his cheekbones have been accentuated, and I definitely see powder on his skin. Heâs perfect, and yet I donât trust him. I look over at Soldier, who is glaring at my newly appointed representative with suspicion. I must say I agree, once again, with his instincts. Our eyes meet, and he shakes his head as though I am nothing and then walks to the far corner of his cell, as far away from me as he can physically get.
âCelestine,â Mom says. She jerks her head in Mr. Berryâs direction, and I realize I havenât acknowledged him yet.
âIâm sorry.â I move forward hastily, as if Iâve been pushed.
âI understand,â he says, devoid of all understanding and affection, through his big white teeth. âSo letâs get to it.â He takes his seat and bangs his briefcase down on the table before him. Gold clasps spring open. âToday is just procedure. You wonât be required to say or do anything at all apart from deny the Flawed claim. Then theyâll set a time for your trial tomorrow and send you home.â
I breathe a sigh of relief.
âCelestine,â he says, noticing my nerves, âyou just stick with me, kiddo, do as I say, and weâll both be fine. Iâve done this a million times.â
The both is not lost on me.
âOf course, your situation is unique. I donât usually have every member of the press and MTV outside my door. Not even for Jimmy Child, but then young women in the media are always more interesting. We found that helped us in Jimmyâs case. They were more interested in his wife and her sister than him.â
âMTV?â
âYouâre a pretty seventeen-year-old girl from a good part of town, no serious problems, girlfriend of the son of Judge Crevan. Whatâs not to love about this case? Plus theyâre looking for a new reality show, and it looks like youâre their newest target. You represent a generation that will be obsessed with every detail of every aspect of this case, a generation that is pliable, moldable, and just so happens to have more disposable income than any other demographic. Whatever shoes you wear today, theyâll want tomorrow. Whatever earrings youâre wearing, they will sell out by the end of this week. Whatever perfume you wear, there