Free Eeny Meeny by M. J. Arlidge

body was quaking, beating out the rhythm of his trauma in some weird, primal way. Helen was certain he was going to keel over at any moment. But the hospital doctors had given them the all-clear to talk to him, so …
    He wouldn’t look at her. Just stared down at his hands, pulling at the IV tubes that emanated from him like tentacles.
    ‘What did she look like, Peter?’
    A long beat and then through gritted teeth:
    ‘She looked bloody gorgeous.’
    Helen hadn’t been expecting that.
    ‘Describe her.’
    A deep breath, then:
    ‘Tall, muscular … black hair … raven black hair. Long. Down to below her shoulders. Tight white T-shirt. Good tits.’
    ‘Face?’
    ‘Made up. Full lips. Couldn’t see the eyes. Tinted glasses – Prada ones.’
    ‘You sure, Prada?’
    ‘I liked them. Made a mental note. Thought I might get Sarah a pair for our anniversa—’
    Then he started to sob.
    They got a bit more out of him eventually. The woman had been driving a Red Vauxhall Movano that belonged to her husband. She lived with her chap and three kids in Thornhill. They were in the midst of moving to Bournemouth and were saving cash by doing the removals themselves, hence the van. She was talkative, breezy and mischievous, which is why she’d offered up her husband’s hip flask, badly hidden as ever under the road atlas in the glove compartment. Peter had of course accepted and then slung it Ben’s way. At which point in his testimony, Peter froze once more.
    Helen left Charlie to babysit him. Charlie was good with men. She was more conventionally pretty than Helen and had an easy, unthreatening manner – no wonder men flocked to her. In her meaner moments, Helen felt her bland, but she certainly had her uses and would be a good copper in time. But Mark was her sounding board and that was who she needed now.
    The White Bear was tucked away in a side street behind the hospital. Helen had deliberately – provocatively – chosen the venue as a test and so far Mark was doing ok, nursing a slimline tonic. It was strange meeting in a pub, made it almost like a date and both felt it. But there were bigger things to occupy them.
    ‘So what are we dealing with?’ Mark opened the conversation.
    He could tell Helen’s mind was spinning, trying to comprehend the latest unexpected developments.
    ‘Ben Holland is not Ben Holland. His real name is James Hawker.’
    Whenever Helen thought of James, she always conjured up the same image – a blood-splattered young man looking utterly lost. Catatonic with shock.
    ‘His father was a businessman. He was also a fantasist and a fraudster. Joel Hawker lost everything in a bad deal and decided to call time on himself and his family, rather than face the music … He killed the horses first, then the family dog, before setting fire to the stables. Neighbours called 999, but I got there first.’
    Helen’s voice wavered a little as she remembered the scene. Mark watched her intently.
    ‘I was a beat copper back then. I saw the smoke and heard screaming from inside the house so I barged my way in. The wife was dead, the eldest daughter and her boyfriend too, and he was setting about James with a carving knife when I arrived.’
    Helen paused before continuing:
    ‘I took him down. Beat him longer and harder than I needed to. I got a commendation for it, but also a warning as to my future conduct.’
    Helen managed a rueful smile, which Mark reciprocated.
    ‘But I didn’t care. I wished I’d beaten him harder.’
    ‘So James changed his name?’
    ‘Wouldn’t you? He didn’t want that kind of notoriety following him the rest of his life. He went to therapy for a bit, tried to deal with it, but really he wanted to pretend it hadn’t happened. I tried to stay in touch with him but a year or two after the murders he dropped me. Didn’t want to be reminded of it. I was sad, but I understood and I wanted him to do well. And he did do well.’
    It was true. James had got himself