soul. Something about the clear air and the hard ground always smoothed away the hard edges of the day.
For a few seconds anyway, until the reality of responsibility reminded him he was still learning how to be responsible, how to care. That everything this was to him rested on somehow making a failing ranch solvent in a few months.
Nearly six years since Dadâs accident, he should have found it by now, but it seemed there was some illusive ingredient to peace somewhere outside his reach. All he could do was keep going and hope someday it would be enough. Hope he wasnât destined to always fall into his weaknesses, his vices, his bad blood.
Caleb reached the barn and pushed the door open with its usual screech of metal rod against metal guide. He opened his mouth to explain how she could help, though he doubted she had the strength for half of what he needed to do.
Delia stopped though, not entering the darkness of the barn. She slowly turned her face to the sky, and breathed.
âI thought you wanted to help,â he demanded. Her stillness now was different than when she was frightened or startled. This stillness was something closer toâ¦peace, and he envied itâa sharp pain of longing hit his gut.
âItâsâ¦â She inhaled, the gray clouds parting to let a hint of sun land on her face. For a second it highlighted all the sharp angles there, both natural and produced by what he could only imagine was hunger and being on the run.
Then she smiled, and he was taken in by the way she inhaled, by the way she seemed to drink in that weak ray of sun, the way it infused her with light and hope and softened all the razor-sharp edges.
âMaybe I would miss Montana if I left.â
âItâll keep you going on a bad day,â he muttered, looking away when she met his gaze. It was a thought he was familiar with, because every time heâd ever thought of running away, heâd remember what it felt like to know the land beneath him was Shaw, for centuries, and the sky above him would always be there.
But why was she thinking about leaving? He couldnât resist another peek at her any more than he could resist the question. âAre you planning on leaving?â
Some of the simple joy leaked out of her expression as fast as it had appeared. âI caââ She shook her head, clearly irritated by whatever it was sheâd been meaning to say. âNot yet, anyhow. Maybe someday.â
There was a strange note to her voice, something akin to wistfulness, but not quite. She turned away from the sun, and to him. Why did that seem so symbolic?
âWhat can I help with?â
There were probably a lot of ways he could answer that question, but he turned to the feed and lectured her about cattle instead.
* * *
Deliaâs muscles hurt by the end of an afternoon following Caleb around. Heâd been surly, blunt, and hadnât gone easy on her.
She grinned and drank in the sinking sun. It had been the best afternoon she could remember inâ¦forever. There was a certain way she had to liveâhead down, work hard, get one sister out and then the nextâthat didnât lend itself to a lot of drinking-in-the-sun introspection.
It didnât get Steph out of Dadâs clutches either, which was a problem, but she had all night to obsess over that.
For right now? She was going to go take a low-water-pressure shower and eat what would likely be unfulfilling canned pasta. And she was going to treasure a few hours ofâ¦
What could she call that feeling? Working side by side with Caleb, feeding cows, checking fences, refilling water tanks. Hard work. Sweaty and sometimes gross work, and yetâ¦
Sheâd been at peace. Partly because of the work and partly because of being outside. And partly even because of the company.
Which she would admit to not one living soul. She started admitting that sort of thing and she was going to do something really