ahead as I pulled open my car door. âI donât live around here.â I got in and shut the door but didnât start the car yetâmostly because Ihad no idea what I was going to do now, or where I was going to go.
The guy turned and started walking back the way heâd come, and I looked for maybe a moment longer than I should have, watching as Bertie took off at a run, the guy stumbling a few steps behind, trying to catch up.
I made myself turn away, then picked up my phone. I unlocked it, then stopped. If I let myself think about the bigger pictureâlike what this actually meant for my futureâI knew I would start to spiral out. I needed to think about my next immediate steps. Small pieces that I could manage. I looked down at my phone and saw the text from Palmer was still openâand Bri had responded, saying sheâd be at the diner if she could haul Toby out of bed.
I didnât know what I was going to do, but I knew I wasnât going to figure it out without coffee.
ME
Iâll be there too. See you in 15.
Then I let out a long breath and started the car. I glanced back once, to see if the guy and his dog were still there, but there was only an empty road behind me.
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We had always called it âthe diner,â though according to the menus, it actually had a nameâGlory Daysâ Diner. I had never heard anyone call it that, though it did explain the high percentage of Bruce Springsteen songs on the mini jukeboxes that sat on the tables in the booths. Weâd been going there since eighthgrade, and weâd especially spent a lot of time there before we were invited to any parties, when we all wanted to be out of the house on weekend nights but didnât actually have anywhere to go. Now we had the booth we always sat in and knew the waitresses who tolerated us and the waitresses who flat-out hated us and who the nice managers and busboys were.
It was the place we always defaulted to and where we sometimes went to the parking lot to have either screaming fights or giggle fests. Iâd made out with guys in the darkness of the parking lot, guys who tasted like milk shakes and French fries. And it was where weâd all gathered the morning after Palmer slept with Tom for the first time, getting every detail over shared plates of pancakes and waffles.
It was early enough that I was able to get parking out front. I climbed the seven steps and pulled open the metal-handled door, walking past the candy machines and the arcade games, one of which, Honour Quest , Bri had become obsessed with two years ago. The PLEASE SEAT YOURSELF sign was facing out, so I pushed my sunglasses on top of my head and scanned the restaurant. Our normal booth was taken by a familyâscreaming kids and parents ignoring them as they read the paper. I looked around for our second-favorite booth and saw Palmer sitting in it alone.
I made a beeline over to her. I was still feeling jangly and on the verge of panicking, but somehow knowing I would be able to talk about it with her was making things seem a little bit better. âHey,â I said, sliding into the booth across from her. There was what looked like a half-eaten plate of waffles and what I was assuming was a vanilla CokeâPalmerâs usualâsat in front of her.
âHi,â she said as she looked at me, surprised, her blue eyes wide. âYou got here fast. Did you speed?â
âNot exactly,â I said, taking a menu from where they were stacked on the table, opening it, then putting it back immediately, realizing I didnât even have to look. I got about four things at the diner, and this was not a place to experiment. There were things that were safe to getâall breakfast foods, mozzarella sticks, burgers, sandwiches. And then there were things that you should never, ever order at a diner, despite the fact that the menu was the size of a small phone book. Palmer
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