I climbed the bleachers and opened my Catalogue of American Fiction textbook to âA Good Man Is Hard to Find,â by Flannery OâConnor. I immediately hated the old woman in the story, though it was pretty obvious I was supposed to. Part of me could sympathize with the bizarre standards she held herself to, to make sure people knew she was âa lady,â but it was a small part. I was highlighting a line when my phone suddenly erupted in the Star Wars theme. I pulled it out and saw that Grant was calling. The ringtone finished once and looped back to the beginning before I gave in and accepted the call.
âHey,â I said, trying to sound distant.
âSo. Your phone ainât broke,â Grant replied.
âNo,â I said, rubbing the bridge of my nose in anticipation of the next logical question: why hadnât I responded to his texts?
âAnd you like Star Wars ?â he went on. âThatâs badass. I love Star Wars ! Which oneâs your favorite?â
â Empire Strikes Back ,â I said reflexively, before sitting up straight and looking around. âWait, howâd you know that?â
âAw shit, Empire âs my favorite too! Look behind you.â I turned and saw him sitting on the highest bench, a duffel bag over one shoulder and a phone to his ear. He grinned, flashing perfectly white teeth, and waved like a little kid.
âWhat?â I said, as I stuffed my things back in my bag and stood. âHow did youâ¦â
âI just came up on the far end over there,â he said, pointing off to the side. âYou were so into whatever youâre reading I couldâve run up and down the field naked and you wouldnâtâve known.â
âAre you stalking me?â
âNaw,â Grant said, shrugging. âI accidentally left some stuff down by the benches after practice yesterday and saw you when I came to get it.â
âOh.â
âIâm glad I ran into you though,â he said. âYouâve been runninâ outta homeroom before I can even say hey, and I ainât seen you in the cafeteria all week.â
âI was eating lunch out here,â I said, rubbing my arm and looking away. âThe weatherâs been nice.â
âAnd my texts?â he said, as he descended the bleachers in long, loping strides. âI thought you liked me. You can tell me if you donât. I can handle rejection.â
âNo,â I said, scooting over on the bleachers. âI mean yes. I do. Itâs just ⦠do you remember the conversation we had when you asked me out for Parker?â
âAh,â Grant said, sitting down next to me with his duffel bag between his knees. âIs this âcause your dadâs strict? I could meet him if you want, let him see I ainât any threat to his daughter.â
âI think that would be a bad idea,â I said, trying to imagine bringing a boy home to meet Dad. âBut I mean ⦠about me being complicated.â
âEverybodyâs complicated,â he said, scratching his temple.
âNot the way I am,â I said. âI have a past, okay? And you really donât want to get involved with it.â
âEverybodyâs got a past,â he said. âThat donât mean you canât have a future.â
âOkay, but there are a lot of things you donât know about me.â
âI know youâre one of the prettiest girls Iâve ever seen,â Grant said, leaning even closer. âI already know youâve got a good heart. I know when we kissed I felt warm all over, like when you sit too close to a campfire, and I know no girlâs made me feel that way before.â
âThatâs really nice,â I said, running fingers through my hair and looking up at the empty sky. I knew that if I looked at him, I would soften, I would give in, and I couldnât afford that.