Free Torn (A Wicked Trilogy Book 2) by Jennifer L. Armentrout

that for you.”
    Oh gosh.
    My heart imploded into goo. I wanted to be mad at him, because it made . . . well, it made hiding everything from him so much easier, but how could I when he said all the right things?
    “You’re too good.” I whispered the truth.
    “I am pretty awesome.”
    I cracked a grin. “And so modest.”
    Ren turned and leaned against the table. He brought me along with him, positioning me so I stood between his legs. A finger curled under my chin and lifted my head. “I really am sorry for what she has done.”
    Me too. But he didn’t even know the half of it or why he really was too good for me, and why I didn’t deserve this . . . with him. I knew that, and yet I was still standing here.
    “You haven’t eaten anything?”
    I shook my head.
    “I was thinking about trying out this place on Canal. They have fried alligator.”
    My nose wrinkled. “Ew.”
    “I’ve never tried it.” His eyes danced with amusement. “I’m thinking today is the day. Come with me.”
    “I don’t know. I’m not really hungry.” Plus, I had other things to do. Important things.
    “Checked out their menu. They have Tater Tots.”
    “Hmm?”
    “Tater Tots with cheese and bacon smothered on them,” he added.
    My eyes widened. “Sold.”
    ~
    After leaving the diner on Canal, I was rocking a decent-sized food baby, the only kind of baby that would be getting into my stomach anytime soon.
    Ren had eaten the fried alligator and determined that it sort of tasted like a cross between chicken and pork.
    And I sort of thought that sounded gross.
    Ren took my hand as we walked down Canal, toward the Quarter, his fingers threaded loosely through mine. I didn’t know how to feel about this since I hated having to navigate people holding hands, but I liked my hand in Ren’s. I liked the warm weight and how . . . grounding it was.
    Ren squeezed my hand. “You going home or . . . ?”
    I knew this was coming. Dinner had been nice and normal despite what I had learned about Val’s parents, my weird meet and greet with the prince, and all the other messed-up things going on. It was weird how all of us Order members could easily bounce back from the Three D’s: danger, death, and destruction. Maybe it was the fact we constantly faced certain death that made us seize each second of the day while continuously pushing forward.
    Well, some of us.
    Up until recently, I’d really been living in the past. Hung up on my own missteps and guilt, afraid of letting go and moving on, and now that I finally had done that, everything I knew about myself was a lie.
    I swallowed a sigh that would have sounded so pathetic I could have won a Daytime Emmy for it. “I’m going to head home in a bit.”
    “But not right away?”
    I didn’t answer.
    Ren stopped, pulling me off the sidewalk so we weren’t in the way. We were at the corner of Canal and Royal. “Okay,” he said after a moment. “Just remember what I said earlier. If you find her, think before you act. Call me. I’ll take care of it. Make sure she’s brought in alive.”
    I appreciated what he was saying, more than I think he realized. I stood on my tiptoes, placed my hand against his smooth cheek, and kissed him. Then I smiled at him. “Are you coming to my place when you get off?”
    “I was planning on it,” he said. “Can you text me when you get back to your place?”
    He was giving me permission to go do my thing. He wasn’t exactly saying it, but he knew what I had planned, and he was stepping aside. Geez, I sort of wanted to strip right here and have sex with him.
    “I will,” I promised.
    His gaze held mine, and there was so much warmth and strength in those emerald eyes, but there was something else. A deep, unfathomable emotion. “Ivy, I . . .”
    I held my breath, for real. Because what was in his eyes mirrored how I felt, and if he was going to say those three words, there was a good chance I would strip down, right here and now—
    “I’ll miss