Free Girl at War by Sara Novic Page A

know, Ana. Just be very quiet. Maybe they want to search us.” The car bobbed on its corroded shocks as weclimbed from our seats. A line of cars had formed along the side of the road. Farther off, a group of civilian prisoners stood on a patch of browning grass, shifting their collective weight uneasily. I stared at them, tried to get someone to look back at me, but no one would. I was jolted from my gaze when a soldier jammed his gun into my back, sending a shock of pain up my spine.
    “Tata!”
I called out to my father as the soldier wrapped a thick coil of barbed wire around my wrists. The soldier let out a laugh and a mouthful of air that stunk of alcohol. Tides of the soured milk pitched against the walls of my stomach.
    “Fuck you! Fuck all of you!” my father was yelling, struggling against his own wire cuffs. The soldier behind him struck the back of my father’s knee with the barrel of his AK. My father’s leg twisted in a way it shouldn’t have, and blood ran down the back of his pant leg. He was quiet.
    I made my way over to him, leaned my head on his hip, and instinctively reached for his hand, but the wire around my wrists sunk into my flesh. “We’re going to be fine,” he said, softly now. “Just don’t get separated.” Beside him, my mother was shaking a little, even though she was wearing her coat. I’d left my jacket in the car, but somehow I didn’t feel cold.
    The realization that my parents, too, felt pain and fear frightened me more than any strangers could. Panicked thoughts came like a rush of river water—they were going to take our car; we were going to be beaten; they were goingto send us to the camps. They herded us into the group of other prisoners: a series of men wearing painters’ jumpsuits and stolid expressions, a teenage couple trying to touch one another and recoiling when the wires caught their skin, a woman with a run of blood down her thigh, an old man with white stubble and scuffed black orthopedic shoes. Others.
    “
Hajde!
Let’s go!” barked the leader of the soldiers. He staggered toward the forest that lined the road.
    I focused on not moving my wrists beneath the wire, watching my feet as they sunk into the underbrush with each step. The child of a concrete city, I had never been in a forest before. It was cold and dank-smelling, like the basement of our skyscraper. The viny brushwood seemed to grab at the tops of my sneakers. I thought of Stribor and his kingdom and wished for a glimpse of magic inside a hollowed oak, a miraculous escape route. As we walked farther into the forest, the afternoon sunlight was swallowed by shadows.
    “Tata,”
I whispered. “Why’s it so dark in here?” But the group had stopped and he didn’t answer. We’d reached a clearing, the forest floor packed so thoroughly under the heels of combat boots that there was no more plant life, only dirt and rotting acorns. In front of us were the remnants of an extinguished fire and a large hole in the ground.
    Behind me someone was shouting. One of the painters had tried to run back toward the road, but his gait was off-balancewith his arms tied behind him. A soldier caught him quickly, and, after a smack of the rifle across the legs, the man was on his knees. The soldier pulled the man up by his hair, moving his head side to side at an unnatural tilt before letting him drop again to the ground. The man lay in the dirt, and the soldier wiped a clump of hair from his hand before angling the butt of his gun and dispensing a swift blow to the back of the head. Blood—runny—and a dent where bone used to be.
    “Anyone else?” the soldier said. His teeth were brown.
    The soldiers organized us into a single-file line. They shoved and jabbed. If someone didn’t move fast enough, they bludgeoned. They arched the line perfectly around the mouth of the pit.
    The first time, the noise that came out of the AK didn’t sound like a gunshot. It sounded like a laugh. There was a unified gasp as