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could hardly hide his lustful glances. When passing by her in the narrow corridor between the counters in the shop, he would repeatedly brush against her breasts or buttocks as if by accident. Raquel would protest, furious. Sara would blush. Drawn to her beauty, young boys began besieging her with telephone calls when she was fourteen. Jaime’s delusional jealousy also began at this time. He prohibited her from talking on the telephone (and changed the number), from going to parties, and from having friends. Under the strictest secrecy he tasked me with watching her when she left school, following her when she went shopping, and spying on her at all times. Eager for attention, I became a dogged detective. Raquel, condemned to solitude, could only shut herself in her room—the largest room in our apartment—and read women’s magazines amidst her white furniture, which was crackle-painted in the style of some former king of France, or play Chopin on her baby grand piano, also white crackle-painted. Jaime had put her in a gilded cage. Swarms of boys would wait for the girls to come out each day at the school, so my father decided to enroll Raquel in a private five-day boarding school. The students ate and slept there during the week then were released to go home, loaded with assignments for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. This made my father feel secure that no one would steal his beloved daughter away.
     
    He was wrong. The Gross family, who were Jewish, had dedicated themselves to the business of education since 1915. Isaac, the father, a depressive and suicidal history teacher, was replaced by his eldest son, Samuel, who had been crippled by polio; English classes were taught by Esther, Isaac’s widow, who had been lame since birth; the two sisters, Berta and Paulina, hugely obese and also lame due to bone problems, taught the gymnastics and embroidery classes. The only one who could walk normally was the other son, Saúl, a mathematics teacher, half bald, obsessively organized, forty-five years old . . . Raquel, who had just turned fifteen, perhaps to liberate herself from her father’s rule, declared that she was in love with Saúl Gross, who was prepared to ask for her hand in marriage. What’s more, Raquel revealed that she was pregnant. Sara, to alleviate the scandal—a scandal that would be the death of her mother—insisted that the wedding should take place as soon as possible. Jaime, flabbergasted, agreed to accept him as his future son-in-law.
     
    When Saúl came for his official visit, accompanied by his family, the stairs groaned beneath the sound of crutches and canes. At the meeting, the main topic of conversation was money. The teacher promised to buy an elegant apartment in the center of Santiago and to settle there with Raquel, giving her all the luxury to which she was accustomed. Jaime, for his part, agreed to cover all the expenses of the wedding. The ceremony was to take place in an enormous hall near the plaza of Diego de Almagro, near where Jashe lived. This would make it easier for the old lady to get there. A week before the great event, seamstresses completed a bridal gown for Raquel with a train three meters long. When Jaime met with Saúl for a private talk, having been warped by my detective activities I put my ear to the keyhole and listened to what they were saying. My father, his sharp voice infected by bitter anger, said to the groom, “You will be part of our family. We need to mend our fences. Tell me, how can I have confidence in your decency if you, a grown man, and a teacher no less, dared to fornicate with a student, an underage girl, a virgin, in this case my daughter?”
     
    “But what are you saying to me, Don Jaime? Whence such monstrous accusations? Raquelita is a goddess to me, immaculate, pure! Even today, a week before the wedding, I have not yet known the taste of her lips.”
     
    “But . . . then . . . my daughter isn’t pregnant?”
     
    “Pregnant? To see Raquel