I know what youâre thinking.â
âWhat am I thinking?â
âYouâre thinking Iâm a bitch to leave you. Youâre wondering why I suddenly have to go to Greece.â
âAre you going to tell me?â
âI think youâve probably guessed. Itâs a man. You had guessed, hadnât you?â
âPerhaps.â
âI met him at a party in New York, just before I flew back to London. He lives in Athens, but I got a cable from him yesterday morning, and heâs in Spetsai, heâs been lent a house by some friends. He wants me to join him.â
âThen you must go.â
âYou really mean that, donât you?â
âOf course. Iâm no reason for you to stay in London. Besides, Iâve got to get down to finding a job and somewhere to live.â
âYouâll stay in this flat till you do?â
âWellâ¦â
âIâll fix it with the porter. Please.â The tone of Roseâs voice was anxious, almost pleading. âSay you will. Just for a day or two. For the weekend, anyway. It would mean so much to me if you would.â
Flora was puzzled, but there was no obvious objection, nor reason to argue with such a pleasant invitation. âWell, all right. Till Monday. But only if youâre sure itâs all right.â
âOf course itâs all right.â Roseâs wide smile, the image of Floraâs own, split her face. She came across the room to hug Flora in a great gesture of affection, only to revert almost at once to her usual disconcerting manner. âAnd now come and help me pack.â
âBut itâs three oâclock in the morning!â
âThat doesnât matter. You can make some more coffee.â
âButâ¦â Flora had been on the point of saying, âIâm exhausted,â but for some reason she didnât. Rose was like that. She went so fast that you went too, caught up in the slipstream of her speed, whirled along behind her, without any clear idea of where you were headed.
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Rose finally set out at eleven oâclock Friday morning on the first stage of her long journey to Spetsai. She left Flora standing on the pavement outside the block of flats.
âIâll see you,â she said, hugging Flora goodbye. âLeave the key with the porter when you finally go.â
âSend me a postcard.â
âOf course. Itâs been great. Iâll be in touch.â
âHave fun, Rose.â
Rose leapt into a waiting taxi, slammed the door, and leaned out of the open window. âTake care!â she called, and the taxi moved off with Rose still waving a mink-furred arm. Flora stood there waving until the taxi rounded the corner of the square and disappeared into Sloane Street.
So that was it. It was over. Slowly Flora turned and went back indoors, up in the lift, and into the empty flat. She felt alien. Without Rose, everything seemed very quiet.
She went into the sitting room and began, in a desultory fashion, to plump up flattened cushions, draw back curtains, and empty ashtrays. Her attention was soon diverted, however, by Harry Schusterâs bookshelves. Browsing, she forgot about housework and found that he read Hemingway and Robert Frost and Norman Mailer and Simenon (in French). There were albums of Aaron Copland in the stacks by the record player, and the Frederick Remington which hung over the fireplace bore witness to his pride in his own country and the best of its achievements.
Harry Schuster was taking shape. Flora decided that she would like him. But it was hard to feel so kindly toward a mother who had gaily abandoned you at birth and swanned off to a life of married ease, taking your twin sister with her.
From last nightâs session with Rose, plus photographs, Flora had built up a picture of Pamela Schuster so real that it seemed as if she had actually met her: beautiful and worldly, smelling
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