him. âWhat?â
Aidan sneered at him and jutted his elbow intoLiamâs side for emphasis. âDâya hear that?â he demanded. âHeâs not even willing to admit to us that Tinaâs getting to him.â
âSheâs not,â Brian lied and didnât even feel guilty for it. What was between he and Tina wasnât anyoneâs business. Not even his brothers.
âRight,â Connor said from beside him and reached for a tortilla chip out of the basket in the center of the table. âYouâre just avoiding going home because you hate the dogs.â
âI do,â Brian reminded him.
âUh-huh,â Liam put in, âbut theyâve never kept you away from home.â
âFine.â He threw both hands up in mock surrender, then reached for his beer. Taking a long swig, he swallowed, then said, âYou guys win. Tinaâs making me nuts. Happy now?â
While his brothers grinned and nodded knowingly, Brian shifted his gaze to the crowd dotting the tables at the Lighthouse. Always, there were families. Kids, of all ages, parents, grandparents. Heâd never really paid attention to them before, and maybe that was because it hurt too much to see happy families when his own marriage had ended.
But for some reason, the last few days, all Brian had been noticing were families. His friends and their kids. Military wives driving into Parris Island to hit the Commissary for groceries. And he couldnâthelp wondering if he and Tina would have had kids by now if he hadnât insisted on a divorce. But following that thought, he wondered if he hadnât saved them both a lot of heartache by ending things when he had.
What if they had had kids, and then divorced? How much harder would everything be? And how unfair to children, torn between two parents.
His gaze fastened on a little girl, no more than two or three. She had dark, curly hair and big brown eyes and looked just as he imagined a daughter of his and Tinaâs would have looked. She was beautiful, he thought, just a little wistfully. And if a ping of regret sounded in his heart, then he was the only one who would know it.
âI donât know about the rest of you,â Aidan said, snagging a chip for himself, âbut Iâm real happy to hear it.â
âOh, me, too,â Connor put in. âGood to know Iâm not the only one suffering here.â
âYou guys are lightweights,â Liam said with a sly smile.
âHey,â Connor argued, âyouâve had a few years to deal with this whole, âno womenâ thing. Weâre new to it, thank God.â
âAnd not long for it,â Aidan remarked, pointing his beer at Brian. âAt least, one of us isnât.â
Brian bristled. Sure, things were tougher than heâdthought and damn, heâd come close to losing the betâand himselfâin Tina the other night. But heâd stayed strong. Stayed dedicated.
Stayed frustrated.
âDonât worry about me, boys,â he said tightly. âIâm doing fine.â
âRight. Thatâs why youâre here with us instead of at home.â
Brian ignored Connor and looked at his older brother. âYou enjoying this, Liam?â
âI am,â he said and cradled his bottle of beer between his palms. Slanting a look at Brian, he said, âYou know, maybe thereâs a reason Tinaâs in town right now.â
âSure. Itâs fate, huh?â Brian said with a snort.
âWould it be so surprising?â
âYeah, it would. I donât believe in fate,â Brian said flatly. âWe make our own decisions.â
Aidan and Connor exchanged a glance and a shrug, then kept quiet and listened.
âAnd if you make the wrong decisions?â Liam asked.
âThen you pay for them.â
âLike youâre paying now?â Liam mused.
âWho says Iâm paying?â Brian argued and when his
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